Effie, I'm so glad you wrote and am sorry to hear about what you are going through.
As you might remember, my husband and I have a lot of stress between us also. It gets so bad when I'm sick constantly because he just doesn't get it or understand. The only time he's a little understanding is when I get such a bad infection and am rushed to the dr's or urgent care - and that understanding doesn't last since he can't comprehend my body needing more than normal time to recoup from something.
YOU sound as if you've been through so much with your health also and your husband is probably frustrated and not quite getting it himself. Your staying home last week alone was probably very good therapy for you and may have been the better medicine.
I'm sorry you had to postpone the Humeria, but if you had an infection, you can't do anything about it. Just like my weight and so many other things in my life, it's up to you to make things happen (when you are not sick, that is) - and I know how hard it is to get physically and mentally ready to things - espeically ones that scare us or make us nervous and when you are up and down in health so much. I'm hoing you patch things up with hubby and that you find a happy spiritual, emotional, and mental place soon.
I'd like to write more, but have to get going. Plus, I can't afford a donation for extra long posts right now! HA HA!