Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to hear about how hard a time you've been having. This forum is exactly the kind of place where you can vent like crazy and not feel guilty. We're all in the same boats We're good at advice, pats on the back, whatever you need. Glad you're here.
Is your dad sick with a mental disorder or a physical ailment? What's an outreach worker? Is that like a therapist? Is that someone you can talk to?
And you can feel perfectly fine talking about symptoms here -- we all do.
Hang in there,
Co-Moderator, Bipolar Forum
It is a melancholy of mine own, compounded of many simples, extracted from many objects, and indeed the sundry contemplation of my travels, in which my often rumination wraps me in a most humorous sadness. -- William Shakespeare