Welcome Shelby:I am new here on Healing Well as well.I can relate to your feeling that everything was wrong in your marriage!At one point I was packed and ready to leave my husband(he was ruining my life)..he too acted like nothing had happened...so scared and confused.
I can only speak for myself when I say,I was so desperate when I went to see my Doc,he told me that I was stressed out and drinking too much coffee.I freaked out in the office then stormed out...Next day I returned and shared with him some of my thoughts.Long story short..There is no way I could have gotten through this on my own,I think I have found a med that suits me.
This is the perfect place to vent your feelings,here I am 2 days on this site and venting my own feelings.
Your not alone
Bipolar IIIt is a melancholy of mine own, compounded of many simples, extracted from many objects, and indeed the sundry contemplation of my travels, in which my often rumination wraps me in a most humorous sadness. -- William Shakespeare