My heart is racing just reading about how your day went today.
I understand how you are feeling. It's good to hear that you are thinking about putting in motion all the things you know you could be doing to help you get out of situations like that. I encourage you to just take a deep breath and start putting those plans into action.
Good for your that you plan on telling your pdoc tomorrow exactly how you have been feeling and how you really want to be proactive in this by really applying all that you have learned. It's a very good sign. Like you said, he may be able to help matters a little more too for you, who knows?
It's good that you're straight up with your pdoc. I remember telling my pdoc the same thing, "I really think I can get through this with more effort on my part." Afterall, that is what it is all about. You come to a time where you are able to be more in control of your actions/reactions to things. Dealing with bipolar isn't all about just the meds. It takes a lot of effort on our part to put ourselves back together.
Good luck to you. Let us know how it goes for you tomorrow.
Bipolar IIIt is a melancholy of mine own, compounded of many simples, extracted from many objects, and indeed the sundry contemplation of my travels, in which my often rumination wraps me in a most humorous sadness. -- William Shakespeare
I agree. I get so much done when I'm hypomanic. Not to mention the lift in the depression. While the highs have their disadvantages, sometimes I welcome them.