I am a 27 year old women who has struggled with BP since I was 8 years old.
Recently my BP has taken a strange turn....and I am having problems cognitivly.
I have BP 1 w/ ultra-rapid cycling and episodes of psychosis.
Luckily I have only been hospitalized once.
i currently Have not job because of the problems Im sure you know comes along with it.
I am hope'n to get one in a few weeks,...a decent one though.
im terrfied that my BP will sneak up and bite me in the ass like it always does.
I feel often like im rolling this huge ball up a hill and I never ever have end in site.
Some days I just want to let go and let it run me over.....but I usally dont.
Im here for moral support and to be of help to others.
I think although I still experiance alot of problems with my illness it is mostly under control.
Then again, we all know its never really in our hands is it?