OK, Last year at this time I had a major meltdown. I was diagnosed with major depression. By May it was changed to Bipolar Disorder. We messed with medication till finally in late January I finally felt "stable".
February 21 I received a phone call that the Rheumatoid Factor in my blood was "way high" and I was sent to a rheumatologist.
I hurt all over. It hurts to type. It hurts to stand, lift, get up, sit too long, lay down too long- all day long. Some days are better then others, but all days are uncomfortable now.
I am in college, and have to re-think my career. I was supposed to go into nursing, but if I have to take immunosuppressant medications, I can't do that.
I feel like the RA (arthritis) has stolen my future, and is making my days nearly unbearable.
I want to get better, but i don't know how. I'm afraid the pain will just get worse.
I go to the pdoc tomorrow morning. I'm gonna be OK till then- but I need hope. Maybe today was just a bad day.
When you cannot stand, on whom do you lean?