OH MY GOSH....I know this is going to sound horrid....I am about
to sound like a spoiled brat to many...please know I truly am NOT. But I just found out last night that the nanny/housekeeper who has been living with my family for the last almost 7 years is moving back to her native country (Hungary) in just a couple of weeks - permanently. She has been here legally for 8 years studying at language college on a student visa. She lived with us and worked for us helping with the kids, light housekeeping, and for me....emotional support with what I deal with here as a wife and mother to BP's. We love her to pieces. I just found out last night about
all this and learned for her it has been in the works for 2 months but she didn't want to say anything until it was a sure thing. She doesn't want to leave, but she has a sick relative that is not getting well, and feels she needs to go see her and help take care of her before she looses her final chance to be with her. This part of it I truly understand..... The problem is, she has had to make a choice about
this, because once she leaves this country, she will not be allowed back as her visa will expire as soon as she leaves, and her passport was due to expire anyway by January. We've tried for years to help her get a green card, but to no avail given 9/11. Plus, her country still has so many communist type practices about
these things that even getting a visa for anything is of issue. We can't attempt to try and get an H-1 visa now before she leaves because she doesn't know how long she will need to stay there, or if by the time things conclude if she will have decided not to try and return. Which at this moment she HATES the idea of.
My problem is that given the stereophonic BP I live with, she has been such a tremendous support emotionally for me. She bares witness to what I deal with. I can vent my frustration and she "gets it", because she sees the validity of my feelings and experience. I feel like when she goes, not only will all of the extra work she does land on me (and with my health issues it is a concern), but the support for me in the house will be gone. I am SO sad and upset.
We haven't told the kids, they will be devastated. We are thinking of telling them the reason she is going, and that she will be gone for about
6 months, and we will speak to her via camera-computer, and then in about
2 or 3 months have her share she is not returning when she wanted to, and doesn't know when, or if she will be for a long time - if ever. This way, the kids will have adjusted to her not being here, and they will see they are still able to talk and see her via this system. Do you think this is the right way to handle it? My oldest is 14 1/2, and my twins are 7. My twins have never not had her here, and my daughter thinks of her like her big sister.
Then there is the practical issue of all the work around here, while I am also working on my company - which is my dream to see it take off and I am busy with that and don't want to put on hold...AGAIN...etc. I am feeling so sad and overwhelmed and a bit angry that she has just told us with only a few weeks before she is leaving us. After all we have meant to each other, and how much a part of this family she is, I feel as if she should have spoken with us months ago and given us a heads up what she was looking and thinking of doing. Is that wrong of me? I know she said she didn't know how to tell us, but this feels like I have just been punched in the stomach. I am scared to be here with out this support for me. I am quite stressed now. She has helped keep me sane...what will I do without her???? She's my friend too. I will miss her because of that as well. I have valued what she brought to our family. ...OH this is all so sad. I wish she could just go home, take care of what she must and return because I know this is where she really wants to be.
Thanks for listening. LFW
Post Edited (loving frustrated wife) : 3/14/2008 12:14:10 PM (GMT-6)