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mogli
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   Posted 4/4/2008 3:46 PM (GMT -7)   
I am home alone--bf away til tomorrow--and depression has been looming over me for the last few days.  I am really struggling right now.  It was a huge crash from where I was at the first part of the week. 
 
As I said, I'm really having a hard time right now, so I'm just going to write how I'm feeling to ppl who understand, and see if that brings me any relief, even if temporary.
 
The depression I'm feeling now is pretty bad.  I can't even bring myself to go for a walk or do anything really.  I'm trying.  I did take the dog out earlier, but the whole time I just wanted to come back in the house and lie down.  I had a shower, put make up on...called a friend...tried to distract myself with TV...nothing is working.  I hate to say that, but it's true.
 
I've been dealing with depression for so many years and it still amazes me how it just sucks the life right out of you.  My entire body is aching right now...Okay...maybe I can bring myself to have a bath.  Yes, I will do that.  But depression is just awful.  I am starting to worry about so many things.  Mostly about starting my externship on Monday.  Ugh... It's not good being alone right now. 
 
So tired, so sad, so hopeless.  I'm even typing slower.... sad I am ready for the next mood change.... sad

Mogs
 
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Trazodone 50mg/day & Lamictal 200 mg/day


yana
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   Posted 4/4/2008 4:49 PM (GMT -7)   
I know its tough mogs ,but feel free to vent here ,do you enjoy gardening.Hope your mood changes for better soon.

yana
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   Posted 4/4/2008 5:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Breathe Mogs....Breathe. I am sorry you are experiencing the after "happy" rush crash. Even non-BP's can experience this. Not to the degree a BP can....but still...I get it. Hang in there kiddo...one thing is for sure....you will swing up....you will swing down....Breather through it and do your best to take care of yourself during this so it minimizes it's severity. We're here to listen...keep communicating. HUGS...LFW

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   Posted 4/4/2008 10:52 PM (GMT -7)   
 
 Mogs, I am with you on this one. I have been very sad and depressed this week after my husband has been at a very low point. He is doing better and today I am doing better as well. Hang in there.There's always a brighter day if we can just hang in there.I am usually a cherry person but my husband's bipolar does take it's toll om sometimes. I wish you a much brighter tomorrow. Hugs, dtressed in bama

mogli
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   Posted 4/5/2008 5:01 AM (GMT -7)   

Thank you guys.  Stressed in bama--I've read your posts recently--I am sorry for what you are going through.  I think it's great that you posted to the depression board as well.  I post there too sometimes.  Everyone here is here to support each other.  We're all dealing with a lot of the same issues.

I had my bath last night.  But I am even worse today than I was yesterday.  I just took my meds and I increased my dose of Lamictal (w/pdoc's permission).  I am in complete and utter agony.  I don't know what else to say right now except that your support is critical to me.  I am home alone and there is no one to talk to even over the phone.  Bf will be home sometime today--and I'm trying to keep an open mind as to how he's going to feel and react to the state I'm in; b/c I don't think I can possibly hide it today.

Thank you for comforting me, it means so much.



Mogs
 
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Trazodone 50mg/day & Lamictal 200 mg/day


loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 4/5/2008 12:46 PM (GMT -7)   
Mogs, just keep it simple with your BF. Tell him you are so happy he is home, you hope his trip went well. You want to hear all about it. You have been having a hard time as you've taken a downward swing with depression and you have been trying to hold yourself together. Stop there....THEN...just ask for him for a good hug. Also, decide on 3 things that would make you happy to do with your BF today once he gets home. Then tell him you'd like to do one of those things and HE can choose which one. Try and keep it honest, but stay on the lighter side with him. He will flow with you I am sure this way if he doesn't feel the weight of it all hit him the minute he walks in the door. Does that make sense??? Then for the heavier stuff, bring it here - to your therapist - a gal pal who is good at hearing you...etc. Hope that helps and you do things to soften your day. Maybe a good movie? There are some good releases, or good DVD's. I just love things like "The Banger Sisters" with Goldie Hawn, or ..."Because I said so", "Somethings Gotta Give" or "Mad Money"....with Diane Keaton. You know...light hearted brainless feel good stuff that offers a good giggle at times. Or some sweeping adventure that takes me away like "Robin Hood" with Kevin Costner, or recently "Eragon" or "The Seeker" or "Narnia"....or even...."The Incredibles" or "The Shrek Series"...etc. Any of those suggestions give me a break from spending too much time in my head and I feel a bit better after a break from myself. Does that make sense? BIG HUG to you Mogs...Hang in there! LFW

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   Posted 4/5/2008 6:12 PM (GMT -7)   
Mogli,

I'm so sorry you're feeling crummy. I'm sorry I didn't get on before your bf got home. I hope that went well and now that he's back you'll have a little more immediate support for your mood. Try to remember that your mood is just that -- a mood. It will pass just as the good mood passed. Soon enough you'll start the externship and you'll be preoccupied again. I wonder if stress and anxiety about that didn't trigger this in some way, especially mixed with your bf being gone. Super ick. You're going to be okay again really soon. Surround yourself with comfortable things and go easy on yourself. There's no need to push yourself or be hard on yourself.

be well,
(((hugs)))
serafena
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mogli
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   Posted 4/6/2008 10:42 AM (GMT -7)   

LFW--I read your post before my bf got home, and had planned to put into action your wonderful advice.  But he was angry and frustrated, so we got into another huge fight.  It was terrible.  On top of everything else, I have the flu right now, which started yesterday before he got home. 

Serafena, thank you sooo much for your post.  It is dead on to how I feel and what's been going on.  Those triggors are exactly what's caused this and made everything worse.  And with the fight last night, I'm still deeply depressed.  I've called crisis twice in the last 12 hours.

My bf wanted to end things last night.  He says he can't do this anymore.  sad    After awhile, he then said he would give us one last chance.  I am confused today, b/c I feel like he's losing his love for me, and nothing could hurt more.  I also feel that I am doing everything I can, but I know with the depression I am still going to make mistakes.  And now it feels like the next time I get this low, it will be over between us.  And I don't feel that's fair b/c I want the same thing he wants--to not get into a huge blow up about it.  But for those times that I am not well, as long as I am going to my sources for support and battling it myself, for the rest of it I just want some acceptance.  So much is going through my mind.  I appreciate his patience and support.  Then there are the times where he can't accept and try to understand that I am not well.  I've told him so many times he doesn't need to do anything--I'll maybe ask for a hug--but just to accept what I am going through.

Last week, when all of you helped me to see that I need to use my other sources as much as possible to avoid these nasty situations, I put that into action.  I definitely did that yesterday, but at one point the tears came, and because of that, he was very upset.  I communicated to him that this is how I am going to be handling things from now on.  I'm not sure he accepted that either.  I expressed to him how much I am here for him.  I took his hand and looked at him to make sure he knew how much I mean that.  

My support worker and my counsellor both feel that I need someone who is going to give me some understanding and acceptance--crisis keeps saying this to me as well, but how are we ever going to get to that point???

I am the saddest I have ever been in my entire life today--I feel that eventually we are going to fall apart.  I almost know that's going to happen.   And this is the person that I have loved more than anyone before; this is the one person I want my life with.  It is absolutely killing me today to think that I'm going to lose this person who I love so much.

So just all of you know, I am still in coping mode for myself today, obviously b/c I'm still depressed--so any support is much appreciated.  Thank you all so much for absolutely getting me through this. 


Mogs
 
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Trazodone 50mg/day & Lamictal 200 mg/day


wmnak
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   Posted 4/6/2008 9:00 PM (GMT -7)   

mogs,

with us here, you are NEVER alone.  you are an important part of this (dis)FUNctional family and we all love you and understand what you are going through.  all of us have been there.  i often ask myself if there is anything in life but depression.  then i get reminded of the manic times and how badly i hurt my loved ones and embarrassed myself.  win?  maybe we can just break even.

mogs, you MUST be careful of creating self-fulfilling prophecies.  if you believe that you cannot win, guess what?  you can't!  if you believe that there is only one person in this whole life for you and that relationship ends, guess what?  you will spend the rest of your life alone.  if you believe that you and your b/f will split, guess what?  DO YOU REALLY WANT THAT TO HAPPEN?

i have a multitude of ailments, from bp to copd and chronic pain.  although they feel life-threatening at times, they only MAKE me feel that i wish i were dead.  my wife, on the other hand, has life-threatening illnesses.  i do my best to keep the lid on myself and my pains and agonies and to care for her.  i know that the probability of her being with me on this plane of existence in 10 years is almost nill.  i don't know how - or if - i can take that loss.  we have been through so much together that i cannot imagine life without her.  i only know that, if and when she passes to another plane, i will survive.  i don't know how.  the "how" is a detail.  i just know that i will, whether i want to or not.

if, may the gods forbid, things don't work out between any of us and out "significant other," we WILL survive.  remember that "hoe" is a detail.  we all have the strength and the ear of the gods.  we don't have to LIKE what we are living through, we just have to live through it.  sometimes my back pain gets so severe that i want to die.   i really do.  then my wife says, "get off your lazy ass and  DO something."  i yell at her and she yells at me and we get on and get something accomplished.  i still hurt, but at least i remain mobile.  you will remain in this world and find happiness with your current b/f or someone else.  the "how" is a detail.

we all love and care for you, mogs.  PLEASE take care of yourself.  i will send good thoughts your way and hope that your b/f will be able to open up and love and accept you, bp and all.

warren



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Post Edited (wmnak) : 4/12/2008 10:51:11 PM (GMT-6)


sukay
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   Posted 4/6/2008 9:58 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Mogli,
 
I'm sorry that things have been so very hard for you lately. You definitley have a lot of things going on at one time and I am sure that is what brought all of this upon you.
 
I had time that when I needed my hubby the most he was also away on a trip. I never wanted to tell him how difficult things were for me, because I didn't want him to worry while he was away.
 
LFW gave a very suggestion, and you tried it but you became over come by all of your feelings and it just came out. I know it was not the best time for it to happen and you tried very hard for that NOT to happen. But sometimes we can't control it.
 
For now, I would just apologize to him and explain to him that you worked really, really hard for him to not come home to that, but you tried really, really hard. I would encourage you to even call you pdoc during those times and just explain to him that you are working on meeting with a therapist ASAP as soon as your job comes through.
 
I know some of us get busy with things in our own life and aren't able to check the board sometimes. I'm sorry I didn't check in sooner.
 
I know you have back up plans and sometimes you feel you just don't have the energy to go through some of them. All we can do is to continue to push. You tried coming here for help, you tried some techniques on your own at home and called the crisis line when you had too. So you should be proud of your proactiveness!!! So that's why I suggest trying to get in to speak to your pdoc if all else fails. I think if he/she knows you are in the process of finding a therapist he would offer to help with more time for you when needed.
 
I don't think you BF meant it personally. I'm sure this is a lot for him to try to consume. I think maybe he needs an adjustment period also. At the beginning my husband had only a few clues on how to try to help me. Mostly he said he felt completely helpless. He too, just like me got better as we both went through things together. But mostly I shared the most with my therapist or a good friend. I shared with him only what I thought he could handle at the time. Later he starting asking how my therapy sessions were going and sometimes I shared it with  him and other times I didn't feel like sharing it with him. But when I did share, he learned a great deal about me and how my mind works.
 
You did good Mogli. Give yourself credit. You BF just needs some time too, IMO. But then again, I don't know the version from his side.
 
Keep the faith.
 
Sincerely, Sukay
~sukay~
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     Crohns disease - 1995 
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serafena
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   Posted 4/7/2008 8:37 AM (GMT -7)   
Mogli,

I'm so sorry to hear of this. It's the last thing you need. I wish your bf could be a little more intuitive about your needs, but he's not, so we have to work with what we're given, right? :-) You did good calling in all your other support options. I'm sorry I wasn't on yesterday to pat your back and dry your tears, but I would have. (((hugs)))

I think the best thing you can do right now is to keep looking forward. This is going to feel impossible when you're so heartachy, but you have plenty of recent success to build on and some new successes coming your way. I want you to remember that because you're feeling down on yourself again when you should be proud of yourself. You can take care of yourself, bf or no. You are a stronger woman than you're feeling like you are right now. He is lucky to have you.

serafena
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loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 4/7/2008 10:56 AM (GMT -7)   
Mogs,

I'm so sorry that things did not pan out for you. In truth...I am a bit confused as to whether when you tried to implement my suggestion he reacted badly, or upon his coming home, due to his own stuff...he came in already angry and frustrated - so you never got a chance?

Either way, I am sorry for you both that you had a fight over whichever it was. Never pleasant.

Personally, I think that you did all you could from what you shared to handle things responsibly...and for this you should be very pleased with yourself. I have to remind myself daily that I can not be responsible for how someone reacts to, about, or with me. THEY are responsible for themselves...like I am for me. It took 2 to fight. Perhaps, as much as you love this man...at this moment, he is not mature enough for your needs. That isn't to say he can't or won't one day get there....just to acknowledge that perhaps he isn't there yet. Plus, there are times...for whatever reason...we as humans feel the need to provoke a fight with someone, and that usually is with the person we feel safest with...our partners. Okay, not the best of plans...but we all...BP OR NOT, can get in a mood like that. Maybe he did this with you when he came home because something in his trip had not gone well for him, or he was upset about something that could have REALLY had nothing to do with you? To a degree, due to your BP, you make an easy target to get angry at, and the way you have described past fights, I question some of the validity of the reasons he may be behaving that way. Is it REALLY about the things he is saying...or is he behaving that way to release his own internal powder keg at a convenient target?

Either way, I know how difficult it is not to take his words to heart....regardless. But the thing is Mogs...this is the next step. You can choose to attach to his hurtful words or not. An example....my H and I got into a snit the other day because we are under a lot of financial pressure, I have been doing my business that isn't bringing in near enough $$ yet (although EVERYONE keeps telling me to keep going because it will...but that is another story), and suddenly his work became sporadic. The fact that I have been looking for work (which he wishes I didn't have to do to help), coupled with the fact that I haven't found the right job yet....triggered him to say he blames me for pursuing this "pipe dream that I have been" when I should have gone out 5 years ago and begun helping financially and he feels this is unfair additional burden and pressure on him. He then said that in his opinion...all I do is busy work that has no value. NOW....here is what I mean about consciously choosing what to attach to....I could have been devastated with his hurtful words, or I could tell myself that his statements were hurtful and to a large degree untrue....YES....I could have sought out employment sooner and continued to pursue my dream on the side vs. F/T....but....up until recent...he didn't want me to. That is a fact. Plus, I know that what I do for our family and household...as well as for him...separate and apart from my business ...has TOTAL value...he was just saying that to be hurtful. I don't have to accept that as truth when I know it isn't. If I did not do all that I do....he could not handle and be the functional man he is. My family would be lost. I know "in truth" he knows that. So...I CHOSE to notice the words but ignore that part of his rant. Words are just words if we don't do anything with them...I let that go in one ear, and out the other. Does this make sense???? The part of his words that held truth, that I could do something about, was hear that he now wants me to bump up efforts for finding employment so he/we aren't so pressured. And that I can and will do. So...nothing for me to be upset about, I agreed with him. But the rest....is HIS stuff...not mine. SO...I let it be his.

I know when you fight you get scared Mogs, BUT....regardless of what happens with the two of you. YOU will be okay, YOU will have a bright future. So you hang in there and just keep doing all the right things for you. You keep being responsible for YOU and YOUR actions and words and issues....and NO MATTER HOW IT GOES....you will be fine. I am thinking about you and sending you big HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LFW

Post Edited (loving frustrated wife) : 4/7/2008 5:51:42 PM (GMT-6)


mogli
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   Posted 4/11/2008 1:41 PM (GMT -7)   

Thank you all so much.  Once again, your support is vital to me.

I am still depressed, and a bit stressed too.  My bf and I talked about things on Monday night, and he said that he really doesn't want our relationship to end.  He said that night we had the fight, that he was tired and upset, and didn't mean to take it so far by saying that he wanted it to be over.  When he said that Monday night, I felt soooo much better.  But I'm starting to worry again.  I just hope so much that he wants to be with me as much as I want to be with him; I hope that he is still in love with me.  I have been depressed all week, and it was my first week at my externship at the doctor's office.  It was overwhelming, but a lot of positives too.  I'm just basically feeling really insecure.  I'm keeping my depression and stress under control as much as I can.  I just don't want us to have another fight about my illness.  I'm so scared of that.

Warren--I have thought of "what if this relationship does end someday?"  Well--it will without a doubt be the most devastating thing I will have ever gone through.  I have never loved anyone the way I love my bf; ever.  And I had quite a few significant relationships before him.  But with him, I have felt this is "it".  I actually want to spend the rest of my life with him; us, together.  But if it does end, I will have to accept it, and I will have no choice but to heal.  LFW, serafena, warren, & sukay--thank you all for your posts.  All of you brought such comfort to me in these posts.  They are the only comfort I have felt in a long time (other than from my Mom) And the stress I have been under has been so unbearable.  I don't even know how I'm not in the hospital.  I meant to call my pdoc today to ask him about going up another 25mg on the Lamictal, but forgot.  I will call Monday. 

Anyway, I will keep you all posted.  Thank you so much, many ((((((Hugs))))))


Mogs
 
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Trazodone 50mg/day & Lamictal 200 mg/day


mommy.michele
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   Posted 4/11/2008 2:29 PM (GMT -7)   

mogs,   I don't know, but maybe going up in your antidepressant might do some good.  I think you really need some help getting over this funk.  You have had a big month.  School, internship...you have accomplished alot, and you really need to let yourself feel truly proud.

You are moving ahead in life, making positive strides...even while dealing with a sometimes dibilitating affliction.  You are strong and you know it.  It is time that you allow yourself to feel it.  One thing my therapist told me, as far as mending the relationship with my husband, is that sometimes what speaks the loudest is no words at all.  I think if you concentrated more on being happy, and feeling happy with yourself, your relationship will heal...just in him seeing how much better you feel.  I think that self assuredness rubs off on people.  I found that a huge shift for the better happened in our relationship when I was able to stop worrying so much about it.  I started concentrating on bettering myself, school, kids...things that made ME happy.   It was hard to do...besides the bipolar, I have always been a worrier.  But after a few weeks he avtually told me that it was nice to see me smiling more often and gave me a big hug.

Not to say we haven't had our share of disagreements, he is still healing from how I hurt him...lying, spending upwards of 50,000 in 1 year.  So he still has moments where is is depressed about it.  But overall I see things getting better.

I think you just need to tell yourself each day that you are worthwhile, that you have accomplished alot and are deserving of praise....self-praise included.  And just try , no matter how difficult, to try and find the good in everything.


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mogli
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   Posted 4/13/2008 8:05 AM (GMT -7)   

Thank you Michelle--so kind of you.  Just to be clear, did you mean I should up the Trazodone (antidepressant) or the Lamictal (mood stabilizer)--with my pdoc's consent...  I'm thinking of upping the Lamictal again.

Anyway, here is the problem:

I do know that I am strong in fighting this illness and accomplishing my goals.  However, the big issue is that I am not strong in how I feel about myself...how I look, my friendships or being around people, and in my relationship.  I am so completely insecure about these things, I don't know how to overcome it.  It's overwhelming.

I agree with you 100%!  I have said this to myself before, about concentrating on myself, and having that self-assuredness...Then my bf would be happy with me.  It's just so hard to get there, but I am going to try so hard. 
 
Ugh--how to build self-esteem?  Part of it is going out of my comfort zone I know...  I think regular exercise to try and get some of this weight off would be great too; the exercise in itself would help me feel better.  I've been saying I'm going to do this for years now...  I'm going to try again to start today with these things.
 
Thanks for your insight and support.
Mogs
 
Bipolar II, Anxiety/Panic Disorder
Clonazepam .5mg as needed, Trazodone 50mg/day & Lamictal 200 mg/day


loving frustrated wife
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   Posted 4/13/2008 4:59 PM (GMT -7)   
Mogs, Think of your exercising as rehab vs. for "weight control". Prior to my surgery 19 months ago, I was in rank shape. But being forced to rehab as a result of the surgery...and fighting for my wellness, got me committed to the basics of 3 times a week. It was that or not walking. I chose to do it. Anyway, exercise is good for you with the BP, self esteem...etc. So, in a way, the benefits about that are like "rehab" for yourself. If as a result you loose some weight, feel healthier...etc. A wonderful bi-product has been achieved. My advice...START SLOW...AND I MEAN SLOW....if you are out of shape (notice I said out of shape, not over weight) stay within reason to start. Treadmill 15 minutes at 2.5. Bike, level 1 for 5 or 10 minutes. Stretch well. Do this for a week 2 times, then go to 3 times in a week. THEN, move tread time up by 5 minutes, speed up to 2.7, bike - level 1...10 minutes...etc. My point is by starting SLOW, when your body is ready for more...you'll feel it because this will be easy. Otherwise, you jump in too big and burn out and then stop going. This is not an option for rehab. SO....recognize that adding things in is a SLOW and STEADY issue. Push when you feel your body say YES....ease back when your body says....DON'T PUSH. The most import thing about "rehab" is consistency. With consistency, you become proud of what you are doing and it helps you stay committed to the process. Just like taking your meds, doing your journal, seeing your pdoc...etc. You are proud of yourself for doing those things...right? When you are consistent to getting your body to move....it helps ALSO build the "self esteem".

Good luck Mogs. I know you will feel better physically, and that will make YOU feel better too! HUGS...LFW

amylou85
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   Posted 4/23/2008 8:37 AM (GMT -7)   
I too feel your pain. I keep waking each morning in hopes that my depression has lifted. I was taking 1500 of depokote and I complained to my dr that I was too flat- no
joy in anything. He cut me back to two tabs but I still feel so unmotivated and and lifeless.

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   Posted 4/23/2008 5:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Amylou,

You have our demon, I see, the evil depression. I'm so sorry to hear it. Keep telling your doctor. Sooner or later he will hear you. Maybe you need something in addition to the depakote to help with the depression. Are you seeing a therapist? I couldn't make it without mine.

serafena
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