He is medicated. He just keeps changing them because he gets frustrated that his memory isn't doing well and the meds have something to do with that...who knows why he keeps changing things around. Thanks for replying. I know I need some counseling. You're absoutley right, I don't even know who I am anymore or what interest me. I never knew it could be like raising an adult child at times.
I can't tell all of you how wonderful it is to log on and here different peoples stories and to know that I am not alone. Loving someone with bp is quite a ride. We have had some episodes this weekend and I have been trying to not take the things he says while manic personally. It has helped a little. A little note for ya...I have 4 children and I can say yea...raising them has been much easier :) I look forward to hearing more from everyone. Thanks again.
Post Edited (loving frustrated wife) : 4/14/2008 6:07:31 PM (GMT-6)
Thanks to each of you. I loved reading your messages and ideas. I am slowly coming to realize that it is time to make a few changes.
This bp is always going to be part of the picture. I need my life to have other attributes to it. This is going to be hard but I am going to try being a little more outgoing again. I am going to try not to be worrying so much about what others think and the stigmatism that goes along with a mental illness.
I had a talk with my husband, who over the weekend decided he was not bp, I told him that if he stopped taking his meds we were pretty much done. I love him, but your right, my kids need to come first. They need stability and I have tried to give them just that over the last years. They are pretty good kids so I am lucky.
Have any of you come across the doctor patient confidentallity thing? When I called to talk with the doctor his nurse said that they might not be able to tell me anything. We have an appointment tomorrow morning. I think I will talk to him about that.
I now have a checking account with just my name on it. That way when things get a little 'crazy' I can transfer money over and out of his reach.
So many good ideas. Thank you...Thank you for helping me feel a little more normal.
Some very good points lfw. I have been watching my children for any signs and so far nada. I know that it can flare at any given time so I will keep watching. My husband wasn't diagnosed until he was around 20 and a very stressful situation triggered it. That led to his whole family being tested and found his dad had it.(that explained alot of his fathers mood swings).
My husband has tried very hard to be responsible. It just seems that since he started swinging on the manic side..we have not been able to control it for any length of time. So when he gets to high....he is superman and can do anything and he feels so good that he thinks he dosen't need meds, or contacts etc. When he comes down he very distraught of the things he may have done or the things he might have said. He always apoligizes to the children if he had offended them. The thing that is different this time than others is that we are seeing a therapist reguarly and his bp doctor as often as needed. I hate the quess work with the meds.
You seem so calm and know quite a bit. How long have you been at this? I'm sure you have told me already, but can't remember.
Your story in absolutely amazing. Eventhough you have been through so much, you seem to have an amazing strength about you. Thank you for sharing your story with me.
We went to the doctor today and we get to change the meds again(joy). I hope this helps. He always cycled on the depressed side until the year 2000. Since then it has always been manic, and we have not found the right cocktail to manage that mania. The meds can be so expensive too. I have just one to budget for, you have two. I feel a little lucky that he has been able to work through most of it. We have been unemployed 4 times from 2000 until 2005.
I haven't heard the levels of bp. I noticed you said your husband was a 2. What are the different levels?
How are ya today? I hope it is a good day for you and your family.
So you husband is able to see that he may be to high an adjust himself? I Have often wondered about that. It is exactly that idea that gets us into alot of trouble. I have believed all along that if he would have red flags for himself, he might be able to stop things before they happen. He either hasn't been able to or won't.
Today, he is a little angry at me. Last night he went up on the meds the dr asked him to and he is not happy being what he calls 'down'. To me it is being normal. I asked him last night if he had taken his meds and how much(like I always do) and he woke me up around midnight furious because he said I was treating him like a child. I get tired of apoligizing for something I don't feel in the wrong for just so we won't have to argue. I know the dr told me that his highs are like being on cocaine. So I know that can be depressing to have to come down. Hopefully after a few days he will get used to it. He called earlier today from work complaining about his stomach being upset and that he felt awful. I think he was wanting me to say he didn't have to stay on the regiment. I just told him to talk to his dr which he did and the dr said stay with it.
We are leaving for a few days to go on a trip with the kids. They have spring break right now. I always get nervous about these things because he can make it miserable on all of us. And then we have spent precious money for bad memories. Do you ever have to worry about that?
Post Edited (loving frustrated wife) : 4/16/2008 7:29:43 PM (GMT-6)