I hav e lways had psychotic sympotms, but they strating ti intrude into my life. I cannot hol conversations for to long. I recall things that never happeded, like my hashand and I going to the libarby. It if weren't for mt trust in him, I'd bet a million dollars we did. I "know" me did-but me didn't. I and I have a consant, it seem, running background of radio but its from a distance so I make out thewords or songs.That's just constanct. It isn't the hell, but I am still having a lot of problem. I cann't drive. Or pick out my house right every time. Based on labortary work and -mania - they put one encephopathological neuroloigal disorder disgnosis- w/ ptsd on me. I don't feel human anymore. The meds arn't keeping the pain & fear away.