In March, I was hospitalized for one week as a result of overwhelming anxiety. The diagnosis code on all my paperwork is Bipolar I Mixed with Psychotic Features. I remember only about two hours out of the week's hospitalization and don't remember the three days before I went into the hospital or the two days after I got out.
I have been on antidepressants for years but in Jan of this year, I started feeling useless and hopeless, two aspects of depression I had not experienced previously. Getting through the day seemed impossible. I have a highly responsible and somewhat stressful job. But I just couldn't get interested in anything. My doctor upped my dosage of Geodon several times.
Then in middle of March I started feeling terribly anxious. It got worse and worse until the hospitalization.
After I got out of the hospital, my terrible, debilitating anxiety returned until dr gave me Zyprexa which caused the anxiety to go away within two hours. Thank god! I don't like taking the Zyprexa and Depakote as they make me hungrier but I cannot go back to experiencing the anxiety.
Now I feel much better but I am back to the days seeming so long and boring, I can barely stand it. Is this a part of depression that may eventually go away? It's similar to how I felt in January but without the anxiety, thank God.
I never felt this way prior to Jan 08.