Gosh, I'm sorry you had to go through so much growing up and your recent life struggles! You've been through a lot of rough times. But I'm so glad that you are finally able to start getting the treatment that you need.
I'm so proud that you're catching on to the right way to handle things. You have a very good friend and I hope he will be an excellent support person for you along with us here.
I've been on trazadone for a long time. I understand about the dreams. Those will get less intense as time goes by. Remember what serafena explained to you about all of the medication options that are out there to treat bipolar. Many times we need a combination of drugs to feel better and that is why it is very important to keep all of your psychiatric appointments and keep her well informed of any difficulties you are dealing with.
Most bipolars also incorporate therapy sessions as part of their wellness program. You've been through a lot, perhaps this will help you to continue to move forward in a healthy way.
Good Luck, I wish you all the best.
I understand how you feel. Do you see a therapist for your talk sessions or does your pdoc provide that as well? When I first started my therapy sessions I was going every week and I still felt like you...incomplete, not enough time. How often do you go?
The more I went, I started to feel like I was really making some progress. It's hard to talk about everything in 1 hour but hang in there, eventually you will feel like you are making some progress.
I have been seeing my therapist for about 7 years now (every 2 weeks and weekly when things start to get a little hairy for me) and I still have things that I need to talk about.
You are making progress. Perhaps you can ask your doctor for a list of some bi-polar support groups in your area if you think you might be interested in something like that. We are always here too.
Keep us posted on how your visit goes this Wednesday.
may i be the last person to welcome you to HW and this forum? lol
therapy sessions are like precious stones: not to be wasted. when i was working and the dinosaurs roamed the earth, i usually had about a million things to get done each day. i personally found that making a list and prioritizing the events helped keep me on track. some things never did get done. oh, well.
i take this same anal retentive attitude with me when i see a therapist. there are a lot of things in my life that are "incomplete" and that may stay that way until i pass on to the next ring of existence. oh, well. i have found that only one, and sometimes two, events can be adequately discussed in the 50-minute hour. it's like teaching or giving a speech. if you can get one major point across, you've done well.
hope this helps. standing on one foot while kicking yourself on the arse with the other one is not a good way of moving forward.