I thank you for your thoughts. I'm glad you responded. I'm feeling pretty low myself. It's been a particularly hard weekend.
In thinking and thinking about this all, I realize that it probably would be best for me to arrange to see a therapist, and so I have. What you suggest truly makes sense. Yet, sometimes what makes the most sense is not always the easiest or most comfortable thing to do. I do accept that he is responsible for his decisions, and therefore, his consequences. At the same time, it is so difficult to watch someone you love go through this cycle of highs and lows, doing all the damage it does. It is especially difficult when his behaviors become predictable and there is nothing I can do to stop it before it gets worse.
It's been a rough month. With the more knowledge and information I acquire, the harder things get.
Not only are the rollercoaster episodes more predictable...from mania to depression, his drug use is worse than ever. He is gone days at a time before he resurfaces. When he returns, he is either a ticking time bomb or a *****cat. I realize he now needs help with the psychosis he's creating for himself with his drug use (crack). He was arrested last Friday and spent 2 days in jail for possession. Frankly, I was glad because I knew he was off the streets. I picked him up and took him home contigent upon his getting help. I'm looking into a Dual Diagnonsis rehabilition facility in Pennsylvania for my husband and amazingly, he is even willing to go. He, too, admits this is the worst things have ever been and that needs help. The one obstacle now is the insurance company. Their arguement is that in-patient services are not necessary and that day to day treatment in our are will suffice.
Where can I go from here? He needs out of the environment, even for a little while, so that he can break his drug routine. He needs psychiatric assistance and meds as well. I've been searching and trying to make appointments with a psychiatrist, but there is no immediate care. They can only schedule appointments for weeks later. He needs help now.
Sorry to hear all the you and your husband are going through. I'm glad he hit rock bottom and realizes that he does need help!
IMO if you and he feel that he does need help right now, I would take him to the emergency room and tell them that. If you feel that he is losing control of his moods and turning to drugs to self medicate for his depression, anger issues and mood swings I suggest that you tell them that and the family history of schizophrena. Let them know that you are trying desperately to get him some help but that nobody can give him immediate help which he needs now.
You know him best and if you suspect all of this is due to a diagnosis of bipolar I suggest that you share that with them. But also remember if he is a drug addict (using cocaine for roughly a decade) and now on crack, his behavior can all be due to that and not bipolar. If he was feeling this way before he turned to drugs I would agree with you that something else is going on here. But if his symptoms started after the drug use you may only be dealing with the effects of that.
It's worth a try! If they won't admit him at least you still have the July 15th appointment that you should go to with him. Try to muster up as much support as you can to help him get through until his appointment. Let the psychiatrist know of all of your concerns and that you feel he needs to be in a inpatient facility if that is what you and he feel. The doc will know what is best. Remind your husband that he too needs to be as cooperative as possible!
Hope things work out well. Keep us posted.
Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 8/21/2008 1:45:26 PM (GMT-6)