Hi all. Sorry I haven't posted in a while. So much has been going on. As you know, I started the Tegretol back two and a half weeks ago and started feeling much better. Actually, a lot better, Yeah!! But then I went for a walk in the park with my mom and daughter. It was a nice day, sunny and I always feel good after exercise and sunshine. Anyway, I started having contractions. To the doctor I go and found out that my cervix is thinning (effacing) in preparation for labor and delivery. I am only 24 weeks!!!! Of course, I instantly got upset. My baby would not survive being born this soon, he is too little and his lungs aren't completely formed enough. So I am on bed rest. I can't do anything. The doctor told me that I haven't dilated any yet which is good and hopefully, by resting, staying off of my feet, we can control that. I went back to see him Tuesday and everything is the same, thank goodness. I have a 10 1/2 month old though and he said that I could take care of her but try to stay off my feet and not lift her very much. Other than that, I can't do anything else. Not even go grocery shopping. I will do whatever it takes to get my son here alright. But it is discouraging and worrysome. Just when I was feeling better and enjoying life again, this happens. I know that God would not give me more than I can bear but...I am scared. I hope that I don't get depressed and down about not being able to do things. My husband works and now he has to do household stuff too. My mom is here helping some too which is a blessing. And I can't help but wonder if all the bad upsets from my bipolar and hormones that I was going through didn't cause this somehow. The doctor said that I didn't cause this, that it just happens sometimes. But I still wonder. I am trying not to worry and get upset but I can't help but be concerned. I just hope everything turns out alright. I don't want to lose my baby; I definitely could not cope with that!!!
Just wanted to let you guys know what is going on with me. I come and read and respond but I haven't posted in a while. It was hard to put words to it.
Have a good day all.
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell." Matchbox Twenty