Hang in there Bama...we hear you, and you are not alone with all the stress. But not having you here is NOT an acceptable option, and while I am sorry to hear about the o/d, I am happy you are HERE!!!!!!!!!!!! I, while my story is different, GET IT, and while I sometimes feel the same way as you and all I want to do is cry from all the stress...I just don't have the darn time to indulge that. So, I have gone back to twice a month seeing a therapisst. It is helping for me. Maybe that would work for you right now too. Perhaps talk to a community mental health center that requires pay on a financial scale, as I know that just knowing the costs about seeing someone can add more stress to an already stressed situation. You might even be able to find someone to take on your case for 6 months pro- bono work? Sometimes therapists need to show those hours also.
Bottom line...while the situation seems dark and hard right now....there is a way out to the light again for both of you. Just breathe, have faith, reach out to us....and VENT away girlfriend....we are here to listen and support you. LFW