Hi serafena ((((hugs))))
My new job has been very stressful (for many reasons) and although I am really loving my job, yes the stress is triggering this episode. On top of that, when I got home last night, my bf was in a bad mood (that's ok...) I asked him what was wrong and he told me nothing and it wasn't in a very nice way. That in turn made me feel worse, and since then he just seems more angry every second. We are barely speaking and already I've simply asked him to get up (at noon!!) b/c we have a lot to do and that's just miffed him off even more. So sharing the duties today is probably out of the question and even if he does help he's going to make sure I know he's mad at me for every minute of it.
Basically I can handle what's bothering me about work; it's him that's making this episode come at me with full force. So, here is my plan, I guess I'm just going to think of the support I have from here while I'm going about my day. I'm going to keep my distance from him and just go about getting everything done around here. I will probably call distress today for sure. I've been really living every day for the past few months without talking about my illness at all. So I'll be posting here this weekend and reaching out to what support I have. I appreciate support, it is much needed right now.
ps-Panic attacks non stop...UGH!
Thanks to all of you. Yesterday just kept getting worse and worse. Bf and I faught the entire day AND my car is broke down and it's going to cost at least $350 to fix. I don't have the money AND I don't have a way of getting to work. I am %100 more stressed out today than I was yesterday. I am beyond depressed and all I want to do is sleep.