I was diagnosed with Bipolar probably around 10 years ago by my GP, but upon seeing a Pdoc, was told that I just had mild depression. I struggled really hard to cope with this, being prescribed many different types of medications over the past 8 years. None of which seemed to do anything to help. Two years ago, I saw a Pdoc who insisted that I was schizophrenic and prescribed appropriate medications....many, many different ones. Most of the time, I was like a zombie. I didn't know if I was in this world or not. I was severly depressed because of this and the fact that I couldn't take care of my husband and children. I finally stopped all medications and with the help of a very understanding GP, I started seeing another Pdoc. It's been a long road, and I"m still not feeling like I think I should. I've had many problems with alot of medications...I refuse to live my life sitting in a fog watching the world go by. It frustrates my Pdoc, but I keep reminding him that it's my life and until he lives a day in it, he'll never understand. I'm taking Lithium, for the second time, along with clonazepam. The first trial with Lithium, I was taking 1200 mg daily, but a couple of months into it, I had tremors, hair loss, memory loss and I had no train of thought. I was taken off of the lithium and tried with a couple more different drugs, only to go back to lithium again. My Pdoc thinks that if I try a lower dose (450 mg/daily), I won't have the harsh side effects that I was experiencing. Well, I still have the hair loss and occasional tremors, but the memory loss isn't as drastic as before. I was also taking Temazepam because I was suffering from insomnia. After taking that for a year, my Pdoc asked me to stop it. I've been off the Temazepam for 2 months now, and the erratic sleep patterns have returned.
Well, there's my life in a nutshell. I"m glad to have found this forum as I really have no one that I can relate to. My family and friends have a minimal understanding of Bipolar, thinking that it's "all in my head"....boy if they only knew. lol I look forward to reading and posting here.
Lithium; Clonazepam; Ativan