hello everyone! I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm new here I was looking for a crohns forum and found healingwell.com. I saw there was a bipolar forum and since I'm not a one disease type of gal I figured I should take a look at this part of the forum too. I'm 27 years old been dealing with mental illness since I was 18. I'm sure I was depressed as a teen also, but it got really bad at 18 and disabling bad at 22. I never went for treatment til I was 22 because my family looked down on depressed people, well basically anyone with a mental illness. I was afraid of how they would respond, but once I started missing work all the time and couldn't get out of bed I decided I had to do something so I secretly went to my primary care doc and got my first med...zoloft. Along with my zoloft I got disability paperwork. Then they added on ativan and I've been on a ton of meds ever since. I was originally diagnosed with major depression, panic disorder, anxiety, PTSD, and agoraphobia. My zoloft looking back is what really pushed my bipolar symptoms out there. I didn't know anything about
bipolar disorder and I was only seeing a primary care doc for my illness so I guess that's why no one picked up on it for years. Once they increased my zoloft I was bouncing off the walls. Talking a million miles a minute, shopping like mad, crazy/dangerous sex stuff. This would come and go. Anyway this continued for years. I've been on just about
every SSRI known to man. Been on a few benzos, antipsychotics, and now mood stablizers. My current cocktail is lamictal and klonopin. I used to be on a whole list of psychiatric meds so only being on two for the time being is strange to me. Once I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and once they psychiatrists realized the SSRIs were making me crazy they took me off of them all together. I've tried lithium, but for some odd reason my body processes it too fast so there's never enough of it in my system to keep it at a theraputic level. During my last really bad episode I had to be put on zyprexa and it was the best thing they ever did for me. Unfortunately I am already overweight, insulin resistant, etc so once I packed on 25lbs I had to come off of it.
Now they're trying out lamictal and we're in the process of finding the right dosage and trying to figure out if we can add anything else to help it. I'm afraid that the only thing that's going to help is the zyprexa, but all of my docs, psychiatrists, family docs, endocrinologists say I can't because of the weight gain. Plus my pocket book is saying no because I can't afford to buy new clothes every couple of weeks because I can't zip up my pants. Plus the weight gain wasn't helping my depression. I became very self conscious, I was already, but once I reached a point where I was too heavy for my pathetic scale my body image crumbled. Anyway that's me in a kind of long post. Like I said I also possibly have crohns. I've also been diagnosed with hashimoto's disease, hypothyroidism, PCOS. So if any of you have those too I'd be more than happy to talk about