I was diagnosed with Bipolar I in january.I started Lamictal and was up to 200mg and was on Seroquel.Didnt see any changes so i stopped.i didnt know that you have to wean off slowly so i got more angry,depressed,cried all the time.
Then in march i went back to my doctor and started the whole process again with Lamictal,starting at 25mg and now im on 400mg.Also take 400mg but if that doesnt work i sometimes take 600mg Seroquel,if i dont workout i gain weight but i only take it for sleep.He gave me Topamax and Klonapin.
Its now July and i still feel the same if not the same since April.I have the worst mood swings.If im not at work or keeping my mind busy i get sad and angry.The one person that doesnt deserve none of this is my husband of 4yrs.
He has been there for me and even went with me to my doctor so he can learn more about the Bipolar disorder.He asked what he can do when i feel like crap and i go to that dark place.He told him instead of running away and ignore the problem,he should be there for me.
Well he was there for me but not lately.He is training for an Ironman race which is on july 20th and i have been supporting his hobby since 2005.Why cant he see when im sad,depressed?why do i always have to nag and tell him when i dont feel good??
I had thoughts of hurting myself and just end it all but i cant do it because i have some hope that i will be happy one day and be normal but im giving up.Its like my life is passing me by.
Im going to see my doctor 7/9 and im gonna tell him that i dont see any difference.I cant take this anymore.
Has anyone been on any meds that havent worked or did you give it some more time??