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glassgirl
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Date Joined Jul 2008
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 7/20/2008 7:39 PM (GMT -7)   
  Hello Everyone! I'm so happy to have found this site. Judging by the post I've read here so far, there are a lot of knowledgeable people here who give great advice. I'm looking forward to being able to discuss bipolar issues with  others who have first hand experience living with bipolar loved ones.
 
 I'm a mom to a 12 year old bipolar son (diagnosed at 7) and wife to a 47 year old bipolar man who was only diagnosed about 6 months ago. We have 3 other children, ages 22, 20, and 16 yrs. old who are not bipolar. Our family has always been extremely close, in part because the love my husband and I have for one another always served as the foundation for our family. We are one of those couples that people would comment about on what a love story we are, and how madly in love they could tell we are. Even through the long road of our son being diagnosed, his many manic episodes, depression, and finally working with the Dr. until she had a cocktail that stabilized him,  we were a team, unshakeable, or so I thought.
 
Then it all came crashing down when my husband seemed to change overnight. It was so dramatic that my first thought was that he had a brain tumor! We took him in to see my son's psychiatrist
who diagnosed him with bipolar disorder/ADD/most likely also PTSD. This man was my rock, kind, loving, patient, thoughtful.....now he is the total opposite. It is honestly as if he is posessed at times and someone else has taken over his body. I will try to have pleasant conversation with him, but he processes the information all wrong and somehow thinks what I said was a slight to him?!? confused   He then lashes out at me with snide remarks. I try to explain that he misunderstood what I was saying, and try to avoid doing anything to make him angry. If he simply asks for a glass, and while reaching for one I hesitate for a moment, he loses his patience and sighs deeply, rolls his eyes, his whole body language shows irritation. This happens most of the time. During his rare moments of being nice I'm usually so on edge waiting for the other shoe to drop that I can't be my normally happy self. I used to always be upbeat, laughing, silly, just having a lot of fun with him and my children. Now, I'm walking around feeling like I'm holding back the tears all the time. My nerves are shot, and I'm so lonely. I really miss my husband/best friend and feel almost in a state of grief over the loss of the husband and life I used to have. My best friend since grade school is who I usually tell everything, but she was just diagnosed with breast cancer. Right now I'm trying to take care of her too, and she comments on how my being silly and cheerful helps her, so I bring her down by telling her what it's like at home right now. My family doesn't believe bipolar is a real disorder, I know this from my sons diagnosis. My immediate family knows all to well how real it is, with having first their brother and now father bipolar, but I don't know if I should ask my young adult children for help, since it's their father I'm complaining about?  I feel at a loss for people in my life who I can seek help or advice from. 
 
The Dr. has adjusted his meds a few times now, but nothing seems to work long. He's currently on  Lamictal, Vivance, Abilify. I've been keeping a log on his moods. He does a complete cycle exactly every 2 weeks,  from irritable to anger, then to mania where he's a little too elated (thinks he can do 10 projects in one day) to mania where he's mad at the world and he must clean the entire kitchen top to bottom.(he used to could care less about it.), then sadness where he just wants to lay on the sofa all day and doesn't have two words to say to anyone. I want to help him but it's difficult when he thinks he's doing fine. He seems to see things totally different than they really are. And when he says hurtful things he never will say he is sorry. He says he does feel bad that I look so sad lately, but that basically he can't help it so I need to learn to deal with it.  If anyone has any advice please respond, I would greatly appreciate it.
Sorry to have gone on so long here, just trying to give the full picture in words is very difficult.
Thanks everyone.
 

olivia of course
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Date Joined Jul 2006
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   Posted 7/21/2008 10:38 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome to HW, it seems like you sure on top of your game. You have things organized so that things don't get out of control. Having a loved one who is bipolar is very difficult because things may seem out of your hands. But hang in there and know there are a lot of people on board with a similar experience and you can bring a lot to the table. Again, welcome to the Bipolar Forum.
Olivia
Bipolar Co-Moderator


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missflip
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Date Joined May 2008
Total Posts : 163
   Posted 7/21/2008 6:36 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey! Welcome to the board.

All I can say right now is that you just hang in there! I put my husband through the same things until we finally got the right combination of medicines in my system. I have been stable for 3 years now except when pregnant because I had to go off my meds for a while. But the same combination still works for me. It took 4 years to find the right combination for me and to get my diagnosis right as well. I am Bipolar II, rapid cycler. The rapid cycler part eluded us for a while; I got second opinions as suggested by my pdoc. Anyway, just hang in there. The right combination of meds will happen; which it sounds like you haven't found that yet. We are here for you anytime.

This is a great place for support and advice. This place and the people here have helped me so much.

Thinking of you,
Missflip
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell."  Matchbox Twenty


serafena
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Date Joined May 2007
Total Posts : 3715
   Posted 7/22/2008 8:59 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi glassgirl,

Welcome to the board. I hope you find the support you're looking for here. While you're husband is going through the process of getting stabilized, I recommend getting some help for yourself, since you find yourself with no one to turn to. It's not easy to be spouse to a bipolar, especially one who is cycling so fast, and you're grieving your sunny marriage. I'd really suggest you get YOURSELF to a therapist, rather than turning to your children for comfort and advice. We all need support, and while you are more than welcome here, I think some professional help could really do you some good.

serafena
Serafena
Co-Moderator, Bipolar Forum
Bipolar II


glassgirl
New Member


Date Joined Jul 2008
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 7/22/2008 11:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you everyone, hearing the average time length needed for medication is encouraging.

Serafena, Thanks so much for your good advice. You are right, support and professional support is very important. I do have a therapist that I see alone, and we also meet as a family.
As close of a family as we are, leaning on my children would be comforting to me, but not good for them, I know. When I wrote that I didn't know whether I should ask my children for help, I mean with his treatment and how informed they should be about his Bipolar behavior. When they ask what about Dad makes him Bipolar, I'm not wanting to sould like I'm complaining about his behavior and whining to them, so I wondered if I should stick to basic symptoms, or incedents of his irratic behavior? They have witnessed one major incedent in the beginning. They were here when he thought our neighbor he has always had a good relationship with was letting his dogs loose on purpose so they would attack ours, screaming, yelling, and trying to get the neighbor to fight him in the yard. The neighbors just stood there stunned, and very aware this was not the man they thought they knew, that something was wrong. I told the kids that their Dad was under stress. Since then we have, along with the Dr. discussed it with them. They are still confused when he snaps at them for no reason, or makes promises to do grand things and can't follow through. They could always count on dad before, so I'm trying to figure out how to let them know that it's something he is going through, and no reflection on them without sounding like I'm complaining.
I am still grieving the marriage I used to know, I know in time I will adjust to things. I look forward to my Dr. appt's each time, and sometimes wish I had her on speedial!
  Mom to 12 yr. old Bipolar son- diagnosed at 7yrs. old
currently taking Lamictal, Zxprexa, a no no...Paxil(hey, it works for him!)
  Also,  Wife husband 47 diagnosed this year with Bipolar/PTSD/ADD
currently taking Lamictal, Ambilify, Vivance
 
Take me in to, your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you, I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you, I'll stand by you
--The Pretenders
 


CapninHapnin
Regular Member


Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 285
   Posted 7/24/2008 6:07 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi glass

I am so sorry.

All the advice I can give on this subject is what my wife explains to me, as I am the one with BP.

You are doing the exact right thing in seeing a therapist. Not only dealing with your own issues regarding this disease, but planning a course of action about this disease.

Marriages are tough even in the best circumstances. This makes it so much harder. My wife has told me she would have to remind herself daily, sometimes hourly, that if the situation was reversed I would do everything to help her as she is helping me. And I believe I would have. Helped her cope. Might work for you, maybe.

My wife also told me, when my behavior was similar to your husband, that no matter what she did she would get yelled at. So she just went about her business and did not appear to let my outburts bother her. The outburst did hurt her, but she decided she wasn't going to participate because the yelling would be there regardless.

Always remember, your health and your childrens health is just as important as your husbands health.

Come back often, we'll try to help.

Cap
I want "I wish I had one more day to spend at the office" on my tombstone.

I used to be crazy, but now I have enough money to be called eccentric.


glassgirl
New Member


Date Joined Jul 2008
Total Posts : 8
   Posted 7/29/2008 9:24 PM (GMT -7)   
Cap,
 
Thanks so much for the reply. You have given great advice and I will try to follow it. I'm really trying to learn not to let his snapping and yelling at me get to me. I did finally tell him that he had to take some responsibility for his treatment and that if he's admitting he knows his meds aren't right then he needs to call the Dr. to let her know. He finally did call her and is trying to do a couple more things to help instead of just saying, "well excuse me, I'm bipolar, and I can't help what I do." 
When you stopped yelling at your wife was it due to therapy, or med adjustments, or both? It  sounds as though the two of you have come far with this and have it under control. I really appreciate you sharing your ideas for coping with me.
Take care
 
  Mom to 12 yr. old Bipolar son- diagnosed at 7yrs. old
currently taking Lamictal, Zxprexa, a no no...Paxil(hey, it works for him!)
  Also,  Wife husband 47 diagnosed this year with Bipolar/PTSD/ADD
currently taking Lamictal, Ambilify, Vivance
 
Take me in to, your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you, I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you, I'll stand by you
--The Pretenders
 

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