I'm 49 and the mother of two teens and a 20 YO. I've been married to a nice guy for 22 years. I substitute teach. I'm bipolar 2 and on Lamictal, Geodon, Welbutrin, Klonopin, and Topamax,
And I'm suddenly really, really angry.
I'm normally mostly easy going. Sure I get mad at the kids and at my husband here or there. But now it's like everything is setting me off. We've been on a couple of family trips recently and I had a miserable time. The same old jokes my husband tells, my kids arguing, and rudeness from service people all made my temper really flare.
Two nights ago I was in a restaurant and I ordered some enchiladas. The server asked if I wanted mushroom or chicken. (This was an eclectic Mexican place.) I said I'd like a little of both in my enchiladas. She frowned and said...."I don't know about that...I'd have to ask...it's normally EITHER chicken OR mushroom!"
So big deal....but I about passed out I was so mad. I didn't say anything to anyone but I was just steaming inside. I seriously think I could have a heart attack from getting so angry over nothing.
My husband has had a cold and has had a lingering cough. This has driven me CRAZY because he refuses to take cough syrup. (He says if you suppress a cough you'll get pnuemonia!) So he coughs at night and coughs in restaurants and on our trip. I have been gritting my teeth and literally wanting to slap him.
Could this be menopause? Bipolar? Old age? I always wondered how people could punch holes in their walls but know I think I can understand how it could happen.
I remember my psychologist a long time ago saying that anger unexpressed turns into depression. I don't need that.