I will refrain from long winded emails quick questions. How does depression start? Is it a caused by tramatic events or does certain chemical imbalances puts someone into depression. Does certain external events trigger the chemical imbalances or is it a process that can be accelerated by [external events]. Would depression happen regardless if one is predisposed (hereditary) to this scourge! Another question a "lack of insight" is usually a bipolar I symptom, how often is it prevelent in Hypomania soft II..... I am skeptical! Or is my "lack of insight" more of "bull headedness". The denial or in my case passing off everything from sleep apnea, to deslexia on what I understand is a difficult prognosis in my or any case of Hypomania Bipolar II mixed state bipolar. My breakdown or breakthough, whatever in therapy I find hard to swallow I am very skeptical on how events of almost two decades can trigger and perpetuate all the above. I am touched by previous emails and have a open mind which i guess the road to any recovery.
My therapist has had to cancel our weekly get together. So im dropping the dime on you guys