For three days now I have cried and cried and weeped. Every morning I wake up so miserable and I cry and cry. If I didn't have Ativan, I would go off the deep end of misery. I take it and then I sleep for two hours or more. I wake up feeling better for a while then I just regress back into the sadness.
I should be happy and thankful. I feel that I am missing out on my baby girl and all that she is doing now. She gets clingy after I have been asleep for hours and she actually knows that I don't feel well. Then I worry about my unborn son. I am 30 weeks along, 31 weeks tomorrow, I should be thankful that I have made it this far with all the complications but instead I am miserable and just want to cry and scream. I just don't know what to do. I can't exercise for bed rest. I can hardly concentrate to read any books. I can't even think to write any poetry. My husband comes home from a hard days of work and has to deal with the wreck of me and take care of our daughter; I feel so guilty.
I just don't know....
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell." Matchbox Twenty