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serafena
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   Posted 8/18/2008 9:26 AM (GMT -7)   
Just a question worth discussing because everyone is different: What's your mania like? shocked

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   Posted 8/18/2008 11:19 AM (GMT -7)   
smilewinkgrin
It usually manifests it's self as anxiety
OR i super clean the house

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   Posted 8/18/2008 12:10 PM (GMT -7)   
Lots of extra energy and lots of rapid talking.

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   Posted 8/18/2008 1:29 PM (GMT -7)   
 Mania. what a great question? When I am manic I become very  creative. I make dried and silk  floral arrangments. and other crafts. Used to sell them at craft fairs and  Crafter malls.. boy did they sell... It was one of my happiest times in my life.. I did this for 15 years... now where I live there are no crafter malls.... so cant sell them here......... In 1990 , I was disagnosed  partly becuase of my  artist side ....diagnosed with Bipolar 1.... another was I manafest my mania... in the past I become really highly sexual.. I am a widow so I am celebate now............
 
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   Posted 8/18/2008 7:54 PM (GMT -7)   
My mania manifested differently depending on what stage of life I was in. As an 18 yr. old, before my BiPolar II diagnosis I could drink everyone under the table, close all the bars, then the after hours clubs and then often private parties, sleep for two hours or so and shower, and go to work, no problem. As I reached my late twenties I would party all weekend, neglect my family, take on much more than was humanly possible, and then crash when I couldn't keep all the balls in the air. Also, spending money was a problem, boy I could blow a thousand or more in a couple of days. As I aged, and stopped drinking I threw myself into working three jobs and attended support group meeting about five times a week. Then as I reached my thirties, something changed. Rather than manic episodes, I was mainly just really depressed and as I tried to continue to attend to all my responsibilities, push through the depression and make myself do what was needed, I began to experience severe panic attacks, and had extreme irritability, like I couldn't stand being in my own skin. It felt like my blood was boiling. Only if I could escape the world and curl up in a ball, I could manage, after a while to come out of my cacoon. My children recall this time as on ein which "mom was always sleeping". I wasn't always asleep, I just could not face anybody. It is much like this today. I curl up in a ball and wish everybody would just leave me alone. It passes more quickly now. Mostly now, I am most often depressed, or crying.

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   Posted 8/18/2008 8:02 PM (GMT -7)   
hmm...for me it's excessive spending. feeling like I'm having an adrenaline rush almost...like I just ran a marathon and could run another if that makes sense. I become more sexual...rapid talking. million thoughts a min. I often feel like I can go back to school or go back to work so I apply places then once I crash either avoid the situation, or try to do what I intended, but always end up failing because I'm not ready to do those things. if I could be manic all the time I probably could, but maybe not because I'm not that responsible when manic. I need like no sleep also.
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   Posted 8/18/2008 9:35 PM (GMT -7)   

When I was younger I used to get bursts of energy and would get really creative.  Also, I used to obsess about cleaning my place even if it were 3 am and of course spend money excessively like there was no tomorrow.  I would also party but I knew my limits.  Plus my mania didn't last more than a week at that time.

My most recent episodes have not been so pretty, the older I get the uglier it gets. devil   I don't know why but my symptoms are somehow getting worse.  I would be happy go lucky for the 1st day or two, then it would get out of control.  I was severely irritable (not sleeping for 3-4 days at a time doesn't help this matter) and drank excessively which contributed to my major anger outbursts (I become really abusive).  I got in a lot of fights some to the point of physical contact.  Of course I was spending mad money even on things that I didn't need, it was all bought out of a whim.  Let me not forget racing thoughts, it got to the point that no one including myself understood me, I just got to the point that I didn't make sense anymore.  I am ashamed to say this, but I also had promiscuous relationships. 

The worst part is that now my manic episodes go on for months, even with the right medications.  Once it starts it takes a long time to get my moods straightened out.  Especially since it got to the point that I can barely accomplish my daily tasks.  People say that they miss being manic, me I fear becoming manic.  It is only fun for a few days then it is total chaos and it takes me months to fully recover.  It's just not fun like it used to be in my teenage years.  It is something that I hope to never experience again.  But we'll see what the future hold for me.

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   Posted 8/19/2008 3:32 AM (GMT -7)   
The kind of mania I have witnessed: my fiance would stay up all night playing video games or creating art while I slept..he'd sleep for two hours and do it all over again...this was the tamest mania. I know his mania took different forms and was a catalyst for self-medication w/ drugs and alcohol when he was younger, but being on the other end of bp....for me, nothing is worse than mania + paranoia (in our situation). The irritability coupled with his paranoia about my whereabouts, what i "meant" when I said something completely innocuous and his manic-induced ability to argue with me for HOURS were virtually a relationship killer...until I realized he was sick. We barely fight now, but trust me, times are still tough, the cloud has just lifted a bit and doesn't follow us around EVERYWHERE.

Thought I'd add my 2c

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   Posted 8/19/2008 6:24 AM (GMT -7)   
oh I don't know how, but I totally forgot about the anger and irritability. boy can I be mean and on edge like you wouldn't believe! I try to avoid people as much as possible when I'm like that because every conversation usually turns into an argument.
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   Posted 8/19/2008 7:33 AM (GMT -7)   
let's see, I get loads of energy, rapid speech, racing thoughts, speeding and/or reckless driving, spending sprees and then agressive and argumentative which then escalates into screaming rages. and little sleep.
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Green Lantern
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   Posted 8/19/2008 11:35 AM (GMT -7)   
Anger and irritability mostly.  Sometimes little sleep, excessive cleaning and spending sprees.

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Georgie Girl
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   Posted 8/20/2008 8:18 AM (GMT -7)   
I had some mania when I was on Zoloft in 1994.  No mania since then but I think I am always cyclothymic when a more serious facet of my bipolar hasn't come to the forefront.  I had a terrible anxiety period in March of this year, during which I don't remember much and was hospitalized for a week, and my doctor said that was part of the manic phase of my bipolar condition. 
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serafena
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   Posted 8/20/2008 8:32 AM (GMT -7)   
Are you bipolar II, Georgie?

I am. My mania always manifests itself as anger, irritability and extreme anxiety. I feel like I'm jumping out of my skin. I can't concentrate. I can't remember anything. I can't complete even the simplest tasks. I wanna punch strangers for the tiniest annoyances. The funniest thing was once I decided I needed summer sausage RIGHT NOW!!! So I went to the grocery store and I was so furious that parking was annoying me and people were walking so slow in the grocery store and I was just getting more and more wound up, and I was almost to where the sausage was when an employee pushed a tall cart of meat in front of me. I had to wait for him to pass, I couldn't get around him. I swear to god I wanted to scream bloody murder, and it's amazing that I didn't. But once he moved, I practically ran to the sausage (which I feel is the goofiest part of this story -- I don't normally even eat this sausage, I was just having a strange craving,) and to the registers. I couldn't get home fast enough, and I was so ANGRY about the whole trip, which, if I had been stable, was completely fine.

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Georgie Girl
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   Posted 8/21/2008 11:03 AM (GMT -7)   
My diagnosis code is Bipolar I, Severe, Mixed (that was my hospitalization and treatment since code).   I don't have anger or irritability at all with my BD.  Just the terrible anxiety that felt like someone I loved was dying and it was 24 hours a day for several days before I went into the hospital and I was so bad that I just shut down, don't even remember but a couple of hours out of the whole week in the hospital. 


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   Posted 8/21/2008 5:51 PM (GMT -7)   
My manic phases are getting worse as I get older.  When I was in my teens all I did was drink and party.  Then in my twenties I was having my children and all that seemed to go away. Then in my thurties I started getting depressed and suicidal.  Now I am in my fourties and I have tried to commit suicide 4 times and just went through the most terrible manic phase ever. It started in April with aggitation and axiety then progressed to becoming very creative and drinking and finally went to bars and had an affair, then I crashed and tried to commit suicide again and did not even know that I took all the pills I did.  I woke up three days later in a hospital.  I am now stabilizing and seeing a psychologist again besides my psychiatrist.  I look back and want to just screem, but the psychologist told me that is part of the disease.  That for me is what it is to be bipolar.  I hate it but am trying to learn to recognize the signs of when it starts.  Hang in there.

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   Posted 8/21/2008 7:00 PM (GMT -7)   
I apologize if my input seems inappropriate - but are all of you saying that manic episodes can still occur even on meds?

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   Posted 8/22/2008 4:49 AM (GMT -7)   
I don't think that's inappropriate JH. Yes manic episodes can still happen even when on meds. Meds aren't a cure all and you still will have bad days, but hopefully with the meds they'll be few and far between and not nearly as bad. I know with my meds my manic days have definitely decreased, but when I do have them they only last a little while and I've even been pretty good about the shopping which was a big thing with my mania. I actually get more depressed now than manic, but at the same time I have a lot of crap going on so I think most of it is situational. Like the mania though, you can still get depressed when on meds.
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Bipolar, panic disorder, PTSD, PCOS, hashimoto's disease/hypothyroidism, acid reflux, and in the process of being diagnosed with either crohns, colitis, or even lupus...who knows really! the docs sure don't lol. Now possibly even celiacs disease!Lots of tests coming up so hopefully I'll know more soon. Too many meds to list!


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   Posted 8/22/2008 12:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Shopping shopping shopping.... I will spend 2k on a new wardrobe even if i need nothing. If i dont do this then i will crash quick. I love going to my favorite store and being the center of attention. I make them bring me clothes, then model everything and have them pick out accessories! Then I keep my high up by showing off my clothes at every bar that same night! Its great at the time, but when i'm crying 2 weeks later cause i cant pay my mortgage its a different story.
 
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   Posted 8/22/2008 8:47 PM (GMT -7)   
I felt what I can only describe as a religious experience (which sounds strange, coming from an atheist). The world would ooze with meaning and purpose; I felt at one with it, appreciating every moment of my existence.

I find that bipolar disorder likely describes my experience best. On one end, there's an all-encompassing awe and wonder at the glorious world around me. On the other end, (sometimes even in the same day) crushing, unrelenting dread about life's futility. I may have some of the other symptoms of hypomania at times, too. Occasionally go through periods (of a day or so) where I am extremely talkative, outgoing, and very productive. I'm a philosophy student, and I tend to write a lot of papers. I found that I would procrastinate forever, hating the assignments I was given, and then suddenly sit down and write 12 pages of careful argument in a few hours, loving every moment of it.

I've felt these experiences since my younger teen years, and didn't associate it with hypomania until I was crashed into deep depression this summer. My girlfriend finally convinced me to see a psychiatrist, and he put me on lamictal. It's been over a month now, and I haven't felt much depression. However, I haven't had a single religious episode, either.

Recently though, I've have had some breakthrough depression for a few days at a time, including suicidal thoughts. Additionally, my palms are very, very itchy, which makes me worry about the dreaded lamictal rash. I made another appointment with my psychiatrist. Maybe I can get something to supplement the lamictal.

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   Posted 8/23/2008 12:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Iconoclastic,

Welcome to HealingWell and to the bipolar board. I don't think you need to worry about the Lamictal (or Stevens-Johnson syndrome (SJS)) rash. Most cases happen pretty soon after starting the treatment. It wouldn't just happen on your hands, but all over your body and very quickly. But obviously, if you're concerned, ask your doctor.

Did your doctor qualify your bipolar diagnosis at all? Are you bipolar I or II? Do you have any "features" that he mentioned to you? I just asked because you have some interesting experiences -- your religious experiences, for example, are not exactly common. If you're having breakthrough suicidal thoughts,you definitely want to tell the doc. And you can always come on here and chat with us about them. We'll turn you around again!

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   Posted 8/23/2008 4:31 PM (GMT -7)   

I've contemplated the diagnoses of Bipolar, as has my therapist.  Sometimes my psychiatrist thinks so - but he leans more towards OCD, ADHD and Depression.  He did finally rx Lamictal, however, when antidepressants and ADHD meds couldn't get all my stuff under control.  This is what I experience that sounds like hypomania, or some kind of mania:

Rapid, rapid thoughts; rapid speech too; tons of ideas and creativity;  I start too many things that no one could possibly finish, and certainly not me with my limited ability to stay on task for minutes, or much less months.

A couple of times I've felt very connected to the universe and can relate to what  Iconclastic said about having "religious experiences."  Everything that happens will seem to be part of a larger plan - I'll feel "called" to do this, and do that.  During such times I meet people all the time, anywhere, and I think I've found my new best friend, or the best person, or the most interesting person, etc.  And then I'll think I have no friends, that the world is a very scary, hard place, etc.

I shop too much.  Don't have credit cards any more, but am still paying off debt from over 5 yrs ago.  Like garage sales and thrift stores, which I guess is good, but I often buy things just b/c they seem like a good idea - whether or not I like or need them. 
Even w/ groceries, I've noticed, I'll buy multiples of items, especially if on sale, and then dont' always have room to store them.  I often don't remember that I have something at home and end up buying it. 

I guess it's adrenalyn ?  But I crave buying something far too often.  And then I get disgusted with such consumerism.  ?

hlayne

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   Posted 8/23/2008 8:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Serafena,

My doctor seemed to think it was Bipolar II, because I've never had a stereotypically "manic" episode. Most of my moods are very low, rather than high. Even when I'm on the upswing, it doesn't seem to be mania, because I have very few of the symptoms - I don't have aggression, rapid movements, spending sprees, increased libido, reduced need for sleep, etc. I do have a few though. One might call some of my experiences euphoria or grandiosity pretty easily. When my upswings are overtly religious, they happen almost exclusively when I'm alone. This might be because my thoughts tend to act like an echo chamber when I have no other input, magnifying themselves many times over. When I happen to be with other people, my experiences are more mild, and I tend to just be much more social, confident, and talkative than I usually am.

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   Posted 8/24/2008 9:13 AM (GMT -7)   
That's really interesting. I have bipolar II as well, but I'm very different. I have the much more classic, low-grade mania that's angry and irritable (no fun mania.) Religious-experience mania sounds kind of cool. :-)
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   Posted 8/25/2008 12:58 PM (GMT -7)   

 

When I get kicked into a mania mode I feel that I have lots of energy and I start many things that I need to do at one time but I am very productive with each task and organize things perfectly and manage to get everything done. I clean and organize my house almost compulsive like. I need hardly any sleep at all.

I also get racing thoughts and talk a mile a minute. I feel so carefree with no stress and sometimes make a complete fool of myself. My hubby, children or friends just find me so silly and funny to be around. If my husband asked me to stand on my head and spin like a top I would actually try to do it and have tried that before when asked! You could dare me to do anything and I would do it.  smilewinkgrin  

I will verbalize every thought that goes through my head without even thinking first and later be so embarrassed about something that I had said or done. Plus I would easily be tempted to self medicate at these times so I really have to fight the temptation off hard. Oh and please…don’t let me out shopping during these times. shocked

Sometimes I will just get VERY IRRITABLE. I would be best just totally left alone because if I have to socialize with anyone during those times I would be one big nagging b_ _ch! Every little thing would irritate me…something I heard on the radio, television, people at stores not to mention HUGE road rage!!! mad

I will get tremendous strength and could tear apart a house and throw things without even thinking twice! nono

I will verbalize every thought in my head no matter how rude or insensitive it would be.  shakehead

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   Posted 8/25/2008 5:30 PM (GMT -7)   
my manic is anything and everything I can get my hands on. I am like a comet that keeps going and is getting burned up in the atmosphere. any thing I hear that could be negative I assume it's about me, anything positive that could make me feel better I assume it's about me. I snap at everyone or cling when I am upset, I slip between an over-controlling adult to a sad helpless child. My personality and voice change with my moods. I have uncontrollable actions in every area whether it be I like to starve myself, I like to overindulge when I eat, I like to steal, I like to overspend, I feel innocent and taken advantage of then I feel angry and bitter because I feel like I've made all the mistakes for myself. My mind is like a rollercoaster, except instead of the slow climb to the top people just strap the seat to a rocket and then let it fall all ****ed up down the track scraping with sparks flying. I do not enjoy my manic. It is a dark place I am afraid of. I'm done with sympathy, I would like someone who can [RELATE] please. No happy bipolars, the cynical ones who don't see the point and only want help. confused turn
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