Samoascookies, You need to stand still and stop panicking for a moment. You say "for decades" you "use" to be very successful and never have to balance a checkbook...that is wonderful, it shows your capabilities - DX or not. Your DX did not just "show up" one day, so you were successful before - and you WILL be successful again now. SO...Step one...CALM DOWN. Step two - TAKE A DEEP BREATH. Step three - if presented with a problem such as this prior to your DX ask yourself how you would have handled it successfully. Step four - don't panic, think rationally now and come at this problem from an intelligent place. Step five - ask yourself how you would council another in your situation and then FOLLOW YOUR OWN ADVISE.
If your ex helped put you in this hole, do not turn to her to help you get out of it, she is clearly the wrong person to trust. Who else do you have on your wellness team you can ask support of at this time? Don't lean on your dx as an excuse, I am not saying it may have not contributed, but again...using your words, you were successful for decades in the past, which means you are intelligent and capable, time to call upon that part of yourself once again and let it take over in this area. Demand it of yourself right now whether you feel capable or not. You CAN do it. Go back to the behaviors (assuming they were healthy ones) that allowed you to be successful in the past and repeat them now. You will succeed again.
As to what resources are available to you now resulting from the dx...I have no knowledge except to say check with social services perhaps and ask them. But again, I urge you to call upon your own strength and pull yourself up by your bootstraps and demand your intelligence to come to the forefront. I just know you can do this if you demand it of yourself from a calm, intelligent and rational place. Best of luck to you. LFW
You have been spot on with so much, I appreicate the email shake and slap this was much less expensive than the P-Doc. Slept ALL day yesterday(when the going gets tough the tough get sleeping) and feel much beter. Plan to take my daughter down to see her family tommorow, hang out relax and then move the hell on. Life is to short I do deserve better for me and my daughter. I am fortunate that I still have my health and some good ideas to jump start my sagging fortunes. One good thing about this hypomania it is a well spring of innovation. Being a self made businessman I am having trouble accepting help from others. My first step in that process was visiting and gathering strength from this site and all of you. The depression is controled now I must move on from a controling ex. I deserve better!
In the United States today, there is a pervasive tendency to treat children as adults, and adults as children. The options of children are thus steadily expanded, while those of adults are progressively constricted. The result is unruly children and childish adults. ~Thomas Szasz
Dear Samoascookies. Welcome. Come anytime you're lost and need help. I do. Sometimes it feels there is no way to turn but there is, here. Not only does the writing it down help get it off your chest, but also some folks here have some pretty helpful suggestions. The final decisions, of course, always remain, yours. about the bankruptcy thing you mentioned. I have been in the same shape you're now in, and worse. I never filed for bankruptcy. My reason has always been the finality of it, the permanence, the inflexibility. I am in Canada, so things might be a bit different here, but, a call to the Better Business Bureau netted me an appointment with a financial counsellor who was very helpful. No committment, just suggestions. Also, we have several "not for profit" organizations started up by folks just like you and I who have been in this position and have found their way out and now want to "pay it forward ".
The other thing that helped me was envisioning "how bad can it get, really". I lived out of my car one summer, spent many nights in a pup tent, went to food banks. There is no shame in this (of course you can't drag a child through all of that but maybe a supportive aunt, sibling, gramma, could take care of the child until you work your way through this). Sometimes being BiPolar feels like taking fiinal exams. It feels like god holds us in great esteem b/c he never gives us more than we can handle. I met some of the kindest and most giving and most supportive people, waiting in line at the foodbank. There is no shame in being sick. There is no shame in growing old. There is no shame in being poor. Bible Quote "it is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to get into heaven (sorry if that's not precise , but you get the idea.)
I try to remember that BiPolar is a physical disease. Would you be angry with someone who has diabetes, walks pigeon-toed, uses a cane, is in a wheelchair? Why should we feel ashamed and upset b/c we have a disease. None of us signed on for this. best of luck to you, more importantly, best of you, to you.