jinxed myself...sorry it's long, but need support

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   Posted 8/28/2008 10:02 PM (GMT -7)   
As most of you know I've been going through a pretty stressful time lately. Well today I finally got in to see my pdoc and I think I jinxed myself. I told them how I'm still having mood swings, but not as severe. How I hardly have any anger anymore. As soon as I left the office I was eating my words. This has been the day from hell.
 
First, my dad had heart surgery yesterday. It went ok...they had to do more than what was expected, but he seems to be alright for the most part. Minus the chest pains so now we have to watch for a heart attack.
 
Second, I call the pdoc's office this morning to double check my appt and they told me to be there between 2:15 and 2:30. I get there...sit for quite awhile and then find out my appt wasn't even until 2:50.
 
Still not angry, but it was slowly building up.
 
Got weighed at the doctor's office...gained over 15lbs since I was there last month. Granted I was sick and lost weight last time, but that means I gained back the 12lbs I had lost and then some.
 
Still building up.
 
Get my prescriptions. My pharmacy is across town from where I live. There is a branch right down the street from my house, but they never get anything right. Boyfriend convinces me to go there because of gas money, etc. So I do everything in my power to make sure they don't screw up. Give them my prescriptions, all seems well. Have to go back in a half hour.
 
Go for lunch. Only one server for the whole dining area. We were there FOREVER.
 
Finally get back the the pharmacy and this b*tchy woman behind the counter tells me I have to pay over $400. I say that can't be right. She yells back to a woman at the computer and that woman yells back that my medicare must be expired. I am livid. I tell them this can't be true, but of course can't find my card to prove it. I tell them I can't pay for the prescriptions...woman behind the counter turns and throws my prescriptions on a table and walks away. I leave very unhappy and start crying in the car. Didn't know what to do. So after I stop crying and get increasingly angry I call my regular pharmacy, who has the same info in their computers as the one I just left and they say they see no problem. They give me the phone number of my medicare prescription plan just in case so I call them. The woman I talk to checks everything and surprise, surprise...I'm covered. She gives me everything the pharmacy would need and then checks her system to see what the problem was when they tried to process my prescriptions...no activity on my account....meaning they never even tried to get approval.
 
mad   mad mad mad
 
I storm back into the pharmacy, but unfortunately the mean woman behind the counter isn't there anymore and the new woman was too nice to yell at. The woman on the computer was still there though and she's so lucky I didn't make a scene. I wanted to scream back to her so bad and tell her I know she didn't even try to get my prescriptions through. So the nice woman takes my info back to the idiot behind the computer, she runs it all through again, and guess what...I'm covered all of a sudden! I sign for my prescriptions and stomp out of the place cursing the whole way out with my boyfriend behind me telling me to calm down.
 
By now I am in the worst mood ever and taking it out on my boyfriend who doesn't necessarily deserve it...although he is the one who convinced me to go there in the first place even though I told him they always screw everything up. I come home, stomp around some more and go to bed for a few hours.
 
I wake up...still pissy beyond belief. This went on the rest of the night. Now it's 1am, the boyfriend is sleeping and here I am. Today was his day off and with all that's been going on lately we rarely get time together. So a day where we could've spent quality time together was ruined and that makes me even more mad. We can try again Tues on his next day off, but it's going to be another day filled with doctor's appts.
 
I have no money, hardly any food, and a credit card bill that just keeps growing. I'm so stressed about that...my dad's health, the fact that I don't know how I'm going to pay my bills, worried about my own health since many of you know that's not good either. I just want to lock myself in my room and never come out. I've snapped at everyone I've talked to on the phone tonight.
 
I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't take much more. cry
27 female
 
Bipolar, panic disorder, PTSD, PCOS, hashimoto's disease/hypothyroidism, acid reflux, and in the process of being diagnosed with either crohns, colitis, or even lupus...who knows really! the docs sure don't lol. Now possibly even celiacs disease!Lots of tests coming up so hopefully I'll know more soon. Too many meds to list!


Diskus
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   Posted 8/29/2008 5:41 AM (GMT -7)   

Closure-

Huge hugs to you...I am so sorry you're going through such a difficult time right now. I often wonder what the people's lives are like behind the counter of pharmacies. There's little compassion anymore.They see the meds you're trying to get, they know what they're for, why on earth would they not try HARDER to assist you?? Esp when you're visibly upset when you're standing in front of them??


closure
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   Posted 8/29/2008 8:58 AM (GMT -7)   
tell me about it. they made me look and feel like an idiot yesterday. at least I got it straightened out. there was no way I would've been able to pay $400 for pills that are obviously covered.

thanks for the support.
27 female
 
Bipolar, panic disorder, PTSD, PCOS, hashimoto's disease/hypothyroidism, acid reflux, and in the process of being diagnosed with either crohns, colitis, or even lupus...who knows really! the docs sure don't lol. Now possibly even celiacs disease!Lots of tests coming up so hopefully I'll know more soon. Too many meds to list!


serafena
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   Posted 8/29/2008 9:17 AM (GMT -7)   
(((((Closure)))))

I'm sorry you had such a lousy day. It sounds like a whopper. Everything's going to be okay.

serafena
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tyno3
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   Posted 8/29/2008 12:15 PM (GMT -7)   

I've got a Vista operating system. Sometimes text just disappears. That just happened twice. You might get two partials and one full, post. So, as with everything else concerned with this disease, we don't just have a few rough moments requiring sane problem solving. we have a civil war. We don't just have irritable moods, we have to tear down the house. You get the picture.

I'm older and now recognize when all he-- is about to break out so I excuse myself and schedule a nervous breakdown. I break my bad days down into mini moments. I tell myself if I can just get showered, that's it for now. All I have to do, worry about. There's nothing to that, right. A monkey can work the shower. Then I promise myself, all I have to do is get to Dr. appt. So what if I'm early/he's late , there's all kinds of weird magazines I'd never dream of reading, otherwise. Heck, I might learn something way interesting like the best place to invest my first $100,000. Yeah, sure, like now I gotta worry about that, I'm on Welfare. But, just in case.  "don't sweat the small stuff, and it's all small stuff". I realise your Dad's illness isn't small stuff. I'm sorry about that. My Dad has alzheimers and I'm his sole caregiver 24/7/365. I watch him dying, daily. But I do all I can for him, and that's all any of us can do, our best.

about the pharmacy, go where they know you, that's your decision. It's very important you feel welcomed and understood. Best of all the good day's ahead.


closure
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   Posted 8/29/2008 3:35 PM (GMT -7)   
today has turned out to be just as bad as yesterday. just snapped at the third person for today. I'm so sick of this. *cry*
27 female
 
Bipolar, panic disorder, PTSD, PCOS, hashimoto's disease/hypothyroidism, acid reflux, and in the process of being diagnosed with either crohns, colitis, or even lupus...who knows really! the docs sure don't lol. Now possibly even celiacs disease!Lots of tests coming up so hopefully I'll know more soon. Too many meds to list!


Diskus
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   Posted 8/29/2008 3:57 PM (GMT -7)   
closure, please hang in. tomorrow is a new day...today and yesterday have completely sucked for you, but it is possible you are turning a corner. i am so sorry you're experiencing this right now. you're allowed to snap..especially considering the days you've had recently.

closure
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   Posted 8/29/2008 6:39 PM (GMT -7)   
thanks guys *hugs*

I've been avoiding calls tonight. I just keep getting an attitude with whoever I talk to so I figure it's best to just avoid the situation.

I just can't believe I went in that pdoc's appt saying how my anger issues have been getting better and then I have these two days. It's like a bad joke.
27 female
 
Bipolar, panic disorder, PTSD, PCOS, hashimoto's disease/hypothyroidism, acid reflux, and in the process of being diagnosed with either crohns, colitis, or even lupus...who knows really! the docs sure don't lol. Now possibly even celiacs disease!Lots of tests coming up so hopefully I'll know more soon. Too many meds to list!

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