Serafena, thank you so much for your reply.
I can't say I've experienced any major depression in the past six years either. There are days when I feel very down but it clears quickly and the next day I am feeling better. No deep lasting clinical depression. I experienced only one real depressive episode when I was 17/18 that lasted for severel long months, with insomnia which was a pre curser for the later mania. I guess I had gone full 22 years without any mania, so maybe its possible to be free and clear for that long and get it again much later? Its just strange that it hit me with such force and to have no other symptoms sense, without medication makes me feel like I'm recovered.
Thank you again for your reply. I appreciate any speculation and input