Hello thank you again for the replys they are so helpful and I guess you could say "I'm so hungry for people to shed a bit of light..." thank you again
To answer a few questions ~
My husband is on meds...I don't remember which ones in 2007 he was switched from one BP med to another just becaues he felt the first wasn't working. He takes two different meds one to help him while hes working to keep his mood calm (he takes this every day) and then the BP is twice a day. I think it starts with an L
He has a pycho who he sees once every three months for about 15min MAX gets the meds and leaves...he feels he doesn't need any other help and doesn't feel that others need to hear bout his life or how he struggles...depression....ect....His friends know that he is BP but with the lack of understanding and the "not needing to do their research I'm left in the "dark" with them. He's also expressed that he doesn't like talking to others about problems because he thinks everyone is stupid and he's smart....HA
I have told him that I'd like to go see a counsler with him but he says he will not talk with anyone because our relationship is fine for him. I do want to go see someone it's just a matter of having the time to go....with the two girls and then my jobs I have such a busy life just getting away from the family is very hard.....plus I feel that if I leave them (the kids) with him while I go to see a counsler he'll get annoyed about it and take it out on them...not in an anger way but just be "lazy" laying on the couch while the 5 year old watches the baby...something that's happened all to much.
My husbands mother was BP and actually passed on (her own terms...not sure if I can talk about that so I'll stop there) when he was a teenager. He is fine with it though...has forgiven her neglect and moved on....his dad has since remarried to a good women whom he calls mom and has been a great supporter...in terms of "trying" to understand what he's going through...but never really knowing. His dad is the same way and has his own issues...although they are both great....every parent has their downfalls.
I want so much to find a support group for just BP but I haven't found any in my area...all are about 3 hours away from me.....a counsler would be great I just need to find the time.....which I will need to do SOON of course to keep my sanity!!
For now I'll read the storys here and gain hope, knowledge and a sense of comfort knowing that others have/are going through this to....
Thank you again.....and yes I agree is moods shouldnt keep us away....but I feel that my kids would be safer and having a better day without having to deal with his mood.....people say I'm to nice to allow this for him...but it's not for him its for the children....I don't care if he has to deal with them..I care about them.