I was meeting with a gentleman about
fifteen years ago who informed me he and his wife had invested a hugh sum of money in precious paintings, as an investment. he was manic, one night, and decided to donate their rare art to a charity (Aids research), without consulting his wife. She came home and discovered their investement, gone. He couldn't understand why she got so angry. Well, that's mania. Total disregard of one's own and other's, rights, safety, well-being, future, etc. Hypomania is characterized by disregard of one's own and other's rights and well-being on a much smaller scale. Like snapping at a family member over some little thing, anxiety, uncomfortable, emotional turmoil. I'm there right now. I reacted to rudeness by my Dad towards me (he has Alzheimer's), by getting angry, crying and pointing out the futility of even trying to carry on, as we have been lately, that he'd be better off with someone else or in a home. I feel like I'm on an emotional rollar-coaster. i cry at the drop of a hat and want to hide out in my room, be left alone. Then when I am talking with someone (like the bank called, I have pressured speech, run on and on, give way to much information, repeat myself, feel doomed. Not pleasant. My pdoc says try topamax, a mood stabilizer. When I am ok, like midmorning after my antidepressants kick in, for about
two hours, I'm fine. Then early afternoon, I feel yucky, itchy, anxious, inadequate, at odds with the world. Maybe the Topamax will even things out.