Hello all, I am back. The baby was born on Sept. 23 rd at 7:30 pm. He is perfect. He weighed 7 lbs. and 12 oz. and was 20 inches long for a 3 week early baby. My nurse asked what I was feeding him. He has dark hair and big dark eyes like his little sister. He is so sweet. There were no complications and I have stopped fainting and all the complications that I had as well. I am healing well and today I actually vaccuumed on my own. But it is hard trying to show them both enough attention like I feel that I should.
However, three days ago I started slipping mentally. I got severly depressed and sad and weepy. I was attacking the Ativan like it was going out of style to stop the crying and anxiousness but it wasn't working. I went to my pdoc right away and he raised my Tegretol by 200 mg and told me that a lot of what I am feeling is also situational. For example, my childish father has been up to his antics again and I was at the breaking point. I was also irritated at everyone including my dh who had done nothing but been helpful. There was a lot of tiredness for both of us being up all night taking turns with our baby and then if the other baby woke up too. So I vented to my mom about my dad (she prefers to handle things herself when it comes to him) and have been taking naps in the day to help combat the tiredness at night. I am starting to feel much better. I was afraid PPD was sitting in and I know that it still can especially for us BP people. But today I am feeling better.
I have missed you guys and have a lot of catching up to do on the posts.
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell." Matchbox Twenty