Bipolar for me BPII, is 90% depression with these bursts of hypomanis where I'm irritable as all get out, hughly anxious ,cranky, don't want to deal with, talk to, or be involved with anyone. Because I have to care for my 73 yr. old Dad with alzheimers, I have to get up, walk the dogs, get Dad's pills ready, feed the dogs, plan out day and fillow through with our plan. Not today thought, I will be able to do all the above but can't plan the day, I'm sick. Flu, or something and the most fearsome toothache, I've ever experienced.
I get upset and cry when dad takes everything I do for him for granted, and continually complains about everything (we only have about 1.5 acres), here. He's bored. He'll need to get used to being border cause at this rate he's nursing home bound and he'll certain to find that boring.
Post Edited (Lorraine-NL) : 10/29/2008 9:25:44 AM (GMT-6)
Lorraine, I am glad you have a better Pdoc, that makes all the difference in the world. I hope for you, myself and everyone out there that one day you find the right combination of meds and something you love doing that will help you feel balanced and peaceful. I know what you mean about writing things out, it helps! If you like to read, I do not know if you are familiar with Edgar Cayce, he has a website dedicated to his work due to the fact that he is deceased, but his work, books and advice on life in general are very interesting and enlightening. I find great comfort in reading about his life and unique way of tuning into peoples problems.
I hope today is a good one for you. The only way I get through is making myself remember that one day at a time is all I can handle.
BPGemini or GeminiBP I forgot
Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 10/29/2008 9:22:29 PM (GMT-6)
Choose your responses, how well put. Being BP most always means just instantly reacting and not being in control of how your thought/reaction process. I guess that is where the medication comes in. Being mostly manic I was always over reacting to everything, would have days when the whole world was out of whack. Went for years and never really realized that it was me that was out of whack. I am thankful the meds I am now on just make me feel calm and peaceful but not a zombie.
Well, it is Friday Eve, the week-end is almost here