I feel for you! Having 2 little kids is stress enough, then throw some bp in there....sure, it's going to take a toll on you. I was 21 and had 3 little kids, and I know I was stressed everyday...and I don't have bp. My husband actually has it, that's why I'm here.
Is there anyway you can get away for a little while? I think having your mom there is a good thing. I mean, she probably helps a lot, right? You should be able to exercise soon, usually 6 weeks, right? So that is right around the corner...that will be good.
Don't be so hard on yourself. Raising kids is not an easy thing, especially 2 little ones. As for your house, it will get clean. Once you are feeling better you can clean it to "your" standards. It used to drive me crazy when someone else would clean my house...because it was never the way I wanted. But then I just learned to let go, at least it was half clean and not a total mess. LoL!
Is there anyway you and your husband can go out to a nice dinner, movies, or something? Sometimes it just takes one good night away from the kids and house to make things better.
I'm sorry to hear about
your son and his heart problems. When my son was first born he was on a heart monitor as well. I know, for me, just sleeping at night was a task.
You have a lot of stress in your life, that's for sure. But just take one day at a time and keep posting. I know that when I vent, for some strange reason, I just feel soo much better.
Sorry, I'm not sure if my words help...but I hope they did, if even just a little. Take care, hon! I hope life gets better for you.