Unfortunally many people dont understand what its like to live how we do. Its like trying to understand what being and acholic is without ever having taken a drink in your life. People just expect us to " get over it" and fail to realize the severity of the dark feelings we deal with. Nights seem to be the worst part for me also, its when my dark feelings surface and all i want to do is get to sleep so i can get past them and get to the morning.
I have a feeling that people here will understand your problems.