Yes, While I am not bulimic, I definitely get depressed and I can relate to that deep dark feeling of not being able to go on. You did go on, though. You can. And most tragic in everything you say is that you feel like your family doesn't support you, like your husband especially just gets annoyed with you. That's no way to live. You definitely need an outlet to talk about these terrible feelings which just weigh on your heart and head. You shouldn't have to keep them bottled up -- that just makes them worse. Have you ever tried a therapist? If you don't have one already, I'd really recommend one. Mine is literally my lifeline. She helps keep me in perspective. Talking it out would help with the desire to purge as well, since I really believe the two are linked.
Keep talking to us as well. I like to talk, and I like to help, so if I can even cheer you up a little, give me the chance.
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