Well I made it to the therapist today and it was quite a drain on the system. Having what appears to be a bp spouse is really a tramatic thing to deal with. My wife is with her family and I have been trying to cope with the infadelity part and actually was prepared to accept and forgive and do what I could to get her help and put the pieces back together. I really wanted to believe that she came clean with me about only having one affair.
I researched her cell calls and located several more affairs. WOW, what a gut wrenching feeling.She denied everything than accused me of having an affair and turned very hostile. After 13 yrs and a 8yr old son in the mix I think its time to move on. I do not want to live the rest of my life looking over my shoulder and not being able to trust her. It is so painful I can not even put into words.
My therapist did help in taking some of the guilt I had away. I feel for everybody that is or has had to deal with this disorder.
It has been helpful to have this site and share the feelings that are inside me. All coments have been positive and unbiased.
Thank you pvguy