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yankeepeaches
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   Posted 12/12/2008 9:09 PM (GMT -7)   

Since going to my new pdoc I've been been feeling overwhelmed and anxious.  She wants me to go to a six week out patient program for additive personality disorder (I think it's based on the 12 step program) and I'm very nervous about that.  My husband and I work opposite shifts and by doing this program we'll be lucky to see each other an hour a day four days out of seven (we've worked opposite shifts 14 years out of the 17 we've been married).  Today I feel like throwing in the towel with all the meds, pdocs, programs, counselors etc.  Right now I don't feel any better than what I did years ago before I had any the afore mentioned.  I thought I was seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and today I feel like it's a train.  Everyone around me has opinions but they've never walked in my shoes (or been in my mind for that matter).  I know I'm being whiny right now but I can't seem to help it.  I don't have anyone to turn to but the board right now.  I need to talk to people that understand these feelings.  People that may have or are experiencing these feelings and get some feed back on how you handled your feelings of hopelessness.  Anyone out there willing to talk tonight?  I know that I sound completely opposite  from my last post; just feel like my emotions have dropped off a cliff in the last 48 hours... cry


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Pain of mind is worse than pain of body~~Publilius Syrus


shebsy
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   Posted 12/13/2008 5:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Dear Yankeepeaches, If you are feeling terribly hopeless, go for a vacation or a walk in the park. That is what I do. I go to the beach when I am depressed or overwhelmed. The sea calms me down. Going for a vacation is also relaxing. I just went for a vacation recently Before my vacation, I was frustrated with my parents, with my psychiatrist, etc. I was tired of their advice and their input on how to improve my life. During the vacation, I met lots of fun people and I tried to forget for 1 week that I had bipolar (except at night when it was time to take my meds). Sometimes, praying can help.

yankeepeaches
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   Posted 12/13/2008 7:21 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for responding...I am planning a trip home to see my son and the rest of my family but that isn't until February. Christmas is a difficult time for me as they are so far away. I will try your idea of the park...maybe the weather will warm up some today and a change of scenery will help.
bipolar with mixed episodes, depression, basilar migraines
**************
invega 6mg, tofronil 75mg, trazadone 150mg, xanax, topamax 200mg/day
 
Pain of mind is worse than pain of body~~Publilius Syrus


serafena
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   Posted 12/13/2008 7:28 AM (GMT -7)   
I'm sorry I wasn't on last night, yankeepeaches. I can totally believe the prospect of the outpatient program is overwhelming. Just try and keep in mind it's only for 6 weeks and you will feel better afterwards. Don't throw in the towel now, when you're just about to get things under control. You're lacking hope, but you've just gotten a new diagnosis, which is scary. You need to hang in there, try and go through with it, and see how it goes. Ít may be just the thing you need to give you a new perspective. At the very least you'll learn some new coping techniques, which can't hurt.

Is your husband being supportive? He's really the only one who matters. You can thank everyone else for their input, but you're absolutely right, they have no idea what you're going through. You and he are the ones who have to make the decisions.

You really will be okay. Hang in there. We absolutely are always here for you.
serafena


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yankeepeaches
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   Posted 12/13/2008 12:33 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks Serafena, Yes I have a super supportive husband! He even said that this comes before vacations planned later in the year (in case I need some time off from work or it takes $$ out of the budget that insurance doesn't cover). He said that this is the number one priority right now. I know it's only six weeks but whenever you're afraid of something six weeks sounds like an awful long time. How do you tell people that you appreciate their concern but you would preper they keep their opinions to themselves without hurting feelings or making someone mad?
bipolar with mixed episodes, depression, basilar migraines
**************
invega 6mg, tofronil 75mg, trazadone 150mg, xanax, topamax 200mg/day
 
Pain of mind is worse than pain of body~~Publilius Syrus


serafena
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   Posted 12/13/2008 7:28 PM (GMT -7)   
That's a good question. I usually just nod and say something like, thank you, I'll consider that, or I'll think about that. Or, maybe "that's not really what's best for us." I hate being confrontational, so I totally relate.
Serafena
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Bipolar II

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