I am so glad you posted this....
I cycle daily a lot, which is awful. The depressive episodes seem to last anywhere from a week to a couple months. When I'm depressed there's no cycling, but out of the depressed episode I am up and down quite a bit. The interesting thing is sometimes my shifts aren't too drastic and other times I can go from way low to complete hypomania.
I never had problems with rapid cycling until I had to change my meds so frequently, in between stopping one and starting another is when it would really kick in for me and you are right, it is down right mentally and physically exhausting. I have been stable for almost one week with new med. I pray every night that this med does it, so far so good. Maybe you do need a med adjustment. It seems to me that some meds do OK for a while and then it is like you have to start all over again. I hate that part but I am very grateful at the moment that all is as calm as it can be for me. I hope you find a way to calm it down soon. When I was rapid cycling it would be so many times in the course of one day, day after day. Good grief!
I've hit a huge episode of depression for sure. No cycling for me for awhile. One thing is clear in everyone's posts...cycling is a part of being bp. Some cycle more than others, I am glad we can empathize with each other.
I find constantly adjusting meds doesn't help the cycling, on the other hand there comes a point where it's necessary...I don't know if that made any sense. I just kind of pay attention (mood chart) to see how bad my cycling is and then decide if it's time to call the pdoc. If the mood changes are something I can ride out each day without it totally debilitating me, and after a few days I feel stable then I know it's not time to make med changes.
Anyway, I send a warm supportive hug to all of you. Especially to those of you who are depressed right now like I am. I am having a really hard time going to work right now. Today I got done early and came home and had a nap for an hour. I needed that. I guess I can pat myself on the back for that.
OH! about the support group thing...trying2getby, you really are going to benefit a great deal I am sure. The support group I went to saved my life. I live with my bp completely differently today b/c of that group. That group taught me how to cope and manage my illness day to day, instead of just letting it consume me in a negative way. Please let us know if you go and if it helps. I recommend it to everyone.
Take special care of yourselves today, and tomorrow.....