Post Edited By Moderator (serafena) : 12/26/2008 11:16:27 PM (GMT-7)
I think you need to get more help. I have had similar thoughts but I know when I am fantasizing if you will and when not. IF you need to be in a safer place please call someone. Do you have a psychiatrist or just a councelor? Maybe your meds need changing.
Sorry you feel this bad, it does pass in my experience but we are all different.
I am glad to hear you are feeling a little better and that you plan to contact your doctor tomorrow--it's very important that you do.
I can relate to this way of thinking. I reached a point in my illness where now the thoughts of suicide are only thoughts for me. Basically I mostly just have the overwhelming feeling that I want to give up. But I never want to do anything, just the thoughts of hopelessness are there. It's a terrible, terrible feeling. Who knows what brought all of this on...have you been depressed lately? Anyway, focus on healing and feel better. You are in my thoughts.