Post Edited (bigtony) : 1/9/2009 1:53:13 AM (GMT-7)
Post Edited (bigtony) : 1/9/2009 2:01:10 AM (GMT-7)
Thanks again Tony!
Can anyone empathise with my feelings below? I wanna know if any of you felt/feel a similar way when you knew something wasn't quite right?:
"It was so weird this mood change. More so than all the others. It was more intense. The depression was really heavy although i wasnt suicidal i thought about death ie. when i was driving i thought what if i drove at 150mph and rammed into the side of the road! not that i think id do it! I dont know how much of it was me making myself think like that or whether it was my condition??! the rapid thoughts were new to me too (especially as i was down and not up), as was the release (like a drug fix) when i was leaving the depression approaching 'normal'...it was like taking morphine!!!!"
Thanks BP Gemini! I dont feel too bad today but when it hits me it hits me! My thought arent racing today! Is that normal for it to be on/off? Sat night was deadful I just wanted to pull my brain out of my head and sat down on the sofa liek a little child and sobbed my eyes out! I wanted to scream! Then I was just exhausted and numb and wanted to sleep. As it turn out I didnt sleep very well and was awake after 2 hours and then pretty much every hour after that!
Ill let you know how tomorrow goes!