Lost in Thought,
I have a friend who is bipolar and had a hard time taking her meds too. She too thought that they would hurt her or make her feel all drugged up and didn't trust them.
What she did was tell her pdoc that she wanted to start very slowly on the meds and why. She told her pdoc how afraid she was of them. The pdoc did start her on very low, low dosages until she got use to them and saw and felt how they made her feel.
When she felt comfortable with the med and how it made her feel then the pdoc would increase it again. Very slowly each time. It took a while but she is finally medicated to where she belongs.
This is how she got past her feelings of what the meds would feel like. Maybe this will work for you.
Don't give up. It is true that we need to be on medications just like someone else who has a medical condition for life like diabetes, crohns disease or a heart condition, etc.
Good luck! You can do it!
Post Edited (LostInThought) : 3/25/2009 10:24:22 AM (GMT-6)
Hello Lost in Thought,
Speaking as a wife of a bp man, I'd like to share that it's very tiring dealing with the mood swings, the depression, the manic episodes, ALL the other bp behaviors that come along with this illness. If you have finally decided to follow a treatment plan for your bp, show your husband that you are committed to it by taking your medications and have some kind of plan in place that allows him to TELL you when you are not doing ok and that it's time to make some meds adjustment and then accept whatever he tells you and follow through. Probably easier said than done. Actions speak louder than words. Good luck.