i am not currently on any medications. i'm not even seeing a doctor. honestly, i cant afford my life as it is, so the thought of another medical bill, even though i know i should definately be seeing a psychiatrist as well as a therapist, scares me a lot.
as for dealing with the highs and lows... well my lows have really been kicking my butt lately.. my poor husband has no idea what's going on, so he just kind of lets me cry. my best friend caught me cutting this morning.. which sucks.. but i think it'll give me motivation to get treatment.
and my highs.. sometimes i don't know what to do. at home, i clean and clean and clean and go play with my daughter and try to keep busy otherwise i end up freaking out and throwing things for the dumbest reasons. it's hard for me when i'm at work because i have all these thoughts and energy that wont go away and i'm stuck behind a counter and so i resorted to snapping myself with a rubber band.. not sure why but the pain calms me down for a minute. unfortunately when i'm working 8 hour shift, sometimes i start snapping a little too much and breaking blood vessels..
so.. i don't know.. i think at the moment i'm dealing with them ok..
no blood.. no foul.