Yesterday my husband told me that I was HOLDING HIM BACK, holding him back in progressing in his theraphy!? That I keep him caged like an animal! This is all during another episode I know, but all I do is stand by him, support him, get him to his appts.,and back and forth to work. I spend more time in the van and on the road then anywhere else! It is been since Feb. but yesterday he started again acussing me of sleeping around, calling me a ****, just being hateful!
Looking for input & help!
I may be very strong on the outside, but I am falling apart on the inside, and if I slow down to think about it, I break down in tears! I guess I am blessed that way because he is willing to take his meds, though I had found a stash of his HBP meds in a sock in his drawer! But he is taking all his other ones thankfully!
Another memeber quoted Gary Alan's song "Life Ain't Always Beautiful", I love that song, some days it really keeps me going! It is very true!
Thanks for your reply!
I know what you mean, and it is not the first time I have been told that. Cuz god knows if the shoe was on the other foot I would be giving the same advice to friend. Besides I know his heart, and that he does truly loves me, I can't answer that.....Why you may ask, well I have thought of sending him packing many of times, and how much happier & less stressed I would be. Then guilt sets in cuz he has no place to go, no family in the area. And I do love him, I would have to considering all I have been through.
Thanh you for your honesty!