My husband flipped out on me again on Friday night. Our 2 year old was up ill and puked on him as he was holding her in the middle of the night and he lost it when I was helping my child before helping him remove his stained clothes. He proceeds to curse at me and I got in his face because I was angry at his reaction. I probably should have walked away instead of getting in his face.
The rage I saw in his eyes came out of NO WHERE. It was like he was possessed by the devil. He then proceeds to scream and yell what I've heard two times before during one of his episodes: "I'm tired of you. You're snippy. The only reason I'm with you is because of the kids." I didn't react. I just walked away and got our child back to sleep.
The next morning it's like it never happened. He's back to himself. I'm feeling like crap. I'm angry. I'm hurt. I can't wrap my head around this behavior. I feel like crying, but I just can't. It's like I'm numb to his words except that he brings this anger over me.
I am still so very angry at him that now instead of praying to God for the strength and patience to help me him through this, I pray that he take him with Him!!!!