Hello Tess. Welcome to our board.
Bipolar has a way of getting us into those dark places, where we feel that we are horribly alone inthe world. You need to speak to your doctor about
a check of your meds...it sounds like you may need some help. But in the mean time you need to try and take care of yourself. Do something enjoyable, there are many people out there willing to listen.
"Just because you're in the driver's seat, doesn't mean
you have to run people over." ~ Fred Pausch