I have just descovered the same Bi-Polar II after many years of symptoms. At least now I know.
My family never understood when I was yound=g and always acted as though I was deliberately being "bad".
I take Celexa now with few side effects but have discovered that heathcare plans descriminate against you for this.
I too cycle because of a triggering event about every 2 weeks although reading and understanding and meds help to
explain it all it doesn't help the feels of being out of control. Unable to explain that I am not being bad, that I
can shut up and control the words, but am labeled bad for that too. I am not that perfect normal a partner would want.
Always taking care of everything making no waves, calm and in control even in the face of a family suicide. Being emotion
just isn't done in our family and I have always been an abnormality. It gives me a sense of normalacy knowing I am not alone out there.
I am totally right there with you guys! Newly diagnosed as Bipolar II. Started Lamictal three weeks ago, but since it takes a while for it to even start to work, and I am off my prozac, it's like I am going crazy. Right now I stay at home with my two children (5 and 3) and it drives me insane.
I am up and down constantly! I too feel like I need something to change now before everything completely falls apart but have to wait for meds to kick in and not bad enough to warrant checking myself in.
It's very frustrating!