I am so manic right now I do not know what to do. My husband told me last night that my pattern was showing up again, and he forgave me last time for my actions but he is worried about me again. I have gone to the bar x3 on my own during the day and am feeling out of control. I have not slept in 5 days, can't eat, and am shaking inside. It was only 8 wks ago that I had my last mania, and I can't believe its back, I feel so guilty.
I keep saying over and over you can act normal, and get through this, but sometimes I feel as if I am going to explode with anger, agitation, or shaking all over. What more can I do to myself after so many attempts to hurt myself. Does anyone have an ideas, and no I can't go into the hospital for this time my husband will flip and I will lose him for sure. No more hurting my family so I need some tips on what to do. My meds were helping even the new one Geodon, but that is not helping me sleep right now.