You are not alone. Don't despair...I know what you are going through and sometimes it makes a tiny bit of difference to know that other people do feel similar feelings.
Try not to withdraw from everyone. There are people who understand. Keep posting. I care!
You were very lucky to have a PDoc that you really connected with you. I think that is so important. I am sorry he moved away. Mine was older and getting ready to retire and really just kept handing out prescriptions hoping that we would find one that worked, unfortunately we never did, then he retired and I did OK for a while but the last couple of months have been tough, that is why I made an appt with a new one and I so hope that I can find that good connection with him. If not, I will keep looking. My old PDoc said I "may" be bipolar but I really think I have very high anxiety, hyper activity and I really did not have problems with depression until I started getting bounced around on psych meds. So I am going into this new appt with an open mind and we will see what happens.