I totally agree with serafena. You need help and need to speak about that with your husband and let him know it's time for you to get into seeing your pdoc a.s.a.p.
Our first thought is usually that we are going to end up in the hospital when most of the time we just need a medication adjustment.
Serafena is right. Let you pdoc know about your insurance situation and I'm sure he will be able to give you some samples or just have to try another drug (which there are many options to choose from) that your insurance can work with.
Things aren't going to get any better if you keep quite. They are going to only end up getting worse for you and your current family situation. Do the smart thing and take charge of what you can do.