I think I am losing it again, and I am afraid to tell my husband. He has had just about enough of my bp episodes. I am feeling agitated, and shaky and I am crying. My insurance will not approve my Geodon Rx now and my kids are having difficulties I just feel so overwhelmed right now and I am pissed at myself. I also colored my hair three times in the last two days, and cut pieces of it off. I shaved my hair off in March and can't remember 4 days from taking some pills. My husband sat up with me all night and worked all day and my son who was here at the time (my children live out of town) stayed up with me during the day when he had to work 3rd shift. I know that I am just going on and on, but if I get bad enough to go into the hospital it would be to much for my husband working six days a week, ten hours a day, plus having to take care of two dogs, and one cat. I was doing so good just a week ago!!! What should I do? Wow I feel exosted just getting that all out.