I am not new here I just have not have internet access.
I have Bipolar 1 and have been diagnosed since 2006 and I am 24. I have had problems since I was 15 though. I have been married for nearly 6 years and I have 1 beautiful daughter. In January of this year I was fired from my job in the middle of a med change from depakote to lithium. I tried to get my unemployment benefits which I was denied then went through a very depressing appeal which was also denied. My employer lied and said they had no idea I had bipolar. So from Jan - Mar I was in the worst depressed period. My weight dropped to 98lbs and I only weigh 103. I was on Remeron, lithium, depakote, klonopin, and ambien. I lost my insurance at the time I got fired so I wasn't able to see a doctor. We moved from Texas to Colorado recently and now I am seeking help. My problem is the nightmares from getting fired. The feeling of wanting to cry alllll the time. My husband is my only support and he doesn't understand the mixed and quickly changing moods.
I have an appointment to see about social security disability. I am just worried because I feel guilty now I was in the hotel industry and loved it but things have gotten so bad some days I don't wanna leave the house. Right now the only med I am taking is Klonopin 1mg. I have eczema on my hands, arms and sometimes my legs. It goes and then when it comes its soooo red and drives me crazy. My appointment for disability is this Friday and I have been told I will be denied due to my age and the fact I don't have a physical problem. I have enough work credits and am currently seeking help.
I yelled at the Mcdonalds manager today because she didn't explain her self. My husband was there and cleared that up. I am just sooo tired of telling people I have bipolar because of the "oh its just in your head" or getting the dirty looks. I only weigh 100 now and people are scared of me! I just don't what to think or do will someone please help me.
Thanks for your time