I will try to make this as short as possible but I truely need advice on where to go from here. My sister has been bipolar for 30 years. Ten of those with a confirmed diagnosis. She has only been able to be successfully medicated for 6 months where as she self medicates otherwise.
She has been on every illegal drug possible. It use to be her oxycontin she would melt down and shoot into her muscle than it was meth and now she is on heroin. She does this in her muscle too. She now weighs about 85 pounds.
She is a rapid cycler by the way and very abusive. Over the years her manic has become worse. My family and I have tried on numerous times to help her, only when asked, then we find out there was an alterior motive for it. Basically she is the best manipulator of them all. She's manipulated courts, judges, police, you name it. We have for many years turned our back but she creeps back it because she is so good at manipulation.
My family and I have pretty much been distant from her over the last few years until my mother than I get a phone call from her saying her good byes to us and that she loved us. Well we went to see her. We asked if she was suicidal and she said yes. We wanted her to go in, we've been down this road of 911 before and she manipulated to the point they didnt take her.
Anyways, she ended up in the ER several days later after taking 20 - 1mg Ativan over 8 hours and it didnt kill her which surprised me. Where did she get it, well from the walk in clinic through a prescription. Not surprising. Bottom line here is I believe this is another manipulate attempt. She was to be in court on Friday to answer to abuse charges and also to find out she would be loosing her daughter for good. She had visitation on every other weekend. One weekend in Jan. she picked her up and they ended up in the car the whole weekend while she was doing heroin.
Thank God she's not allowed to be with her now. My problem is Im getting sucked in again. She is extremely bad mentally and I feel she will either end up being dead within the next 6 months from suicide or from the effects of heroin. I am to afraid to be alone with her and my mother is too. Ive been beat way to many times. When she gets manic she gets so extremely angry and when the fist start flying by her, she doesnt stop. I just never know when it will happen because of her rapid cycling. I have had to distant myself even though I love her. Its tough to love her though. I do know that its not her fault for the mental illness.
The last time she assaulted me was it and I have had only a very few occasions when weve been in the same room (never alone of course). Because she is so good at manipulation, the hospital will be letting her out soon. This is due to her voluntarily admitting herself over the weekend for a suiside attempt and the visual and auditory hallucinations.
The court apparance she was suppose to go to is not the first one. She has 3 kids by 3 fathers and all have and had custody. She is going to call again when she starts to withdrawl and becomes suicidal again. Who do I call besides the police or ambulance to get her the help. She is not able to make these kinds of decisions any more. There has got to be something that can be done or someone to call. Im just having a hard time seeing someone whom I know to be loving and caring become an empty shell.
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Post Edited (mypearl) : 6/23/2009 8:48:52 PM (GMT-6)