I was so excited/releived when I stumbled apon this site because I have been looking for a forum like this to chat with other people with BP. I knew I wasn't alone or the only person who had this illness, but I don't have anyone who I can talk to who fully understands.
A little bit about me: I just turned 20yrs old, and I am a full-time college student (though I took last semester off when things got particularly bad).
I have been struggling with pretty severe anxiety and sleep issues since I was about 4yrs old, though I wasn't officially diagnosed until I was 11. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 15 and put on 10mg Lexapro along with Xanax. After coming out of drug rehad when I was 17, my sleeping problems started to get worse and worse, but no one knew why.
Since entering college almost 3 years ago, Things started going down hill pretty rapidly, and I got to an all-time low in January. I went to a new Psych and she was horrified to know that my other psych knew I was BP but didn't put me on a mood stabalizer and promptly put me on 200mg Lamictal. I also got a sleep diagnosis that I most likely have Phase Delay Syndome (essentially permanant jet-lag), and though there is no cure, it gives me a peace-of-mind to at least know. Now I take 10mg Ambien
I also am dyslexic and have bad ADHD, but because my parents didn't beleive in ADD and though I was just lazy, I wasn't able to take adderoll (30-40mg) until just recently, and it has been a life saver!!
I don't think the future is as bleak as I thought a couple months ago, but I really struggle with the fact that everything I have is not ever going to go away. I am scared/sad about the fact that I am so young and I already all of these things have happened, and I am afraid that I won't ever be able to ever hold a job or stay in a relationship, or even renew the ones with the people that I alienated because of my erratic behavior.
I know that's kinda a long intro, but that's actually the least amount that I can say about everything. Thanks for listening!!